Spread Me All Over Illinois

Change holds me down to the places I don't want to be When I wake up I look in the mirror and I see The person that's been scaring me away from moving on And getting out of my head I end my nights in the same spot that I told myself I would leave I want to come home and have it be like it was before I left I'm starting to see that I keep living alone in the past Since loneliness will never leave my mind I can't shake it off Always a fight between my past My head, and my heart, you can cut me up And spread me all over Illinois I can't, I can't find myself Since loneliness will never leave my mind I'm stuck and I feel like I'm the only one I end my nights in the same spot that I told myself I would leave I want to come home and have it be like it was before I left I'm starting to see that I keep living alone in the past Since loneliness will never leave my mind Did I get left behind? Or is everybody else just hiding that they're lost Loneliness will never leave my mind Loneliness will never leave my mind Did I get left behind? Or is everybody else just hiding that they're lost