Pulling

[Verse] She held my hand a bit, I pulled away Man and then she grabbed again, with swollen wet eyes of an abandoned kid She loved Simone, not the Raz in him and the lavishness But she was insecure of other women with the pageant wins I grabbed her then and told her I'm only attracted when A woman is sexy in all of her parts past her skin It's fun to unwrap the gift, but the packaging Doesn't mean a thing when it's after it's Unwrapped and it's thrown right in the trash bin She's past tense, dwellin' in the past tense She's askin' if it's too much to have friendship With a man who's been bitten by vampires Livin' in trapped liars, I mean lairs Tomato/tomato, I just play with staccato Rhythmically detach a bit, sip then blame the Moscato I never know if I like havin' around the angels that follow Evil or good they stain me like treatment of wood She keeps tellin' me I'm a bad guy, I used to be good I keep hangin' up, like, "Bitch, I don't need no more negatives" I've been walkin' miles every day and this Heavy soul of mine is beginnin' to weigh a bit Heart's startin' to ache a bit, this mind of mine, it makes me sick I'm tryna find a time to run away with it But the threshold of my schedule is paper thin Last time I tried to pencil in I had to break a pen But that's better than makin' and breakin' promises The good die young, Leons and [?] Alans and Quincys, even PJs and [?] and shit I would never wish that on the strongest men Goin' against Raz, I would just commit that But then I'd have to live with that, and I ain't with that You get more kick back than the kickback We rolled up on them niggas like a zig zag Then smoked 'em like cheap tobacco broke friends had Bittersweet, strong mothers who clinched and they ain't get to me We got outta there, turned them tires Mr. Clean Bald as fuck, smellin' like Pine-Sol and mud Clean dirt, killin' in between work Fast balls, pitchin' with a mean curve Villains at best, concealin' the stress We're dealin' with death by dealin' the death I got a girl that text me about killin' herself I call her mom up and hope that she can give her some help Walkin' in the bloody bathroom, rivers of helps Red flags wavin' like, "Look what I did to myself" Wait, don't look what I did to myself Openin' pills off the shelf, downin' downers 'til she don't feel [Outro] Heard your soul cry out for me Don't know why I didn't come Now the pain sits patiently Don't know why I didn't run Now I sit here to myself Thinkin' what I could have done And I see there's no time left Don't know why I didn't run Don't know why I didn't run