Duino Elegies : The Ninth Elegy

Why, if it could begin as laurel, and be spent so, this space of Being, a little darker than all the surrounding green, with little waves at the edge of every leaf (like a breeze’s smile) - : why then have to be human – and shunning destiny long for destiny?.... Oh, not because happiness exists, that over-hasty profit from imminent loss, not out of curiosity, or to practice the heart, which could exist in the laurel...... But because being here is much, and because all that’s here seems to need us, the ephemeral, that strangely concerns us. We: the most ephemeral. Once, for each thing, only once. Once, and no more. And we too, once. Never again. But this once, to have been, though only once, to have been an earthly thing – seems irrevocable. And so we keep pushing on, and trying to achieve it, trying to contain it in our simple hands, in the overflowing gaze and the speechless heart. Trying to become it. Whom to give it to? We would hold on to it for ever....Ah, what, alas, do we take into that other dimension? Not the gazing which we slowly learned here, and nothing that happened. Nothing. Suffering then. Above all, then, the difficulty, the long experience of love, then – what is wholly unsayable. But later, among the stars, what use is it: it is better unsayable. Since the traveller does not bring a handful of earth from mountain-slope to valley, unsayable to others, but only a word that was won, pure, a yellow and blue gentian. Are we here, perhaps, for saying: house, bridge, fountain, gate, jug, fruit-tree, window – at most: column, tower......but for saying, realise, oh, for a saying such as the things themselves would never have profoundly said. Is not the secret intent of this discreet Earth to draw lovers on, so that each and every thing is delight within their feeling? Threshold: what is it for two lovers to be wearing their own threshold of the ancient door a little, they too, after the many before them, and before those to come......., simple. Here is the age of the sayable: here is its home. Speak, and be witness. More than ever the things of experience are falling away, since what ousts and replaces them is an act with no image. An act, under a crust that will split, as soon as the business within outgrows it, and limit itself differently. Between the hammers, our heart lives on, as the tongue between the teeth, that in spite of them, keeps praising. Praise the world to the Angel, not the unsayable: you can’t impress him with glories of feeling: in the universe, where he feels more deeply, you are a novice. So show him a simple thing, fashioned in age after age, that lives close to hand and in sight. Tell him things. He’ll be more amazed: as you were, beside the rope-maker in Rome, or the potter beside the Nile. Show him how happy things can be, how guiltless and ours, how even the cry of grief decides on pure form, serves as a thing, or dies into a thing: transient, they look to us for deliverance, we, the most transient of all. Will us to change them completely, in our invisible hearts, into – oh, endlessly, into us! Whoever, in the end, we are. Earth, is it not this that you want: to rise invisibly in us? – Is that not your dream, to be invisible, one day? – Earth! Invisible! What is your urgent command if not transformation? Earth, beloved, I will. O, believe me, you need no more Spring-times to win me: only one, ah, one, is already more than my blood can stand. Namelessly, I have been truly yours, from the first. You were always right, and your most sacred inspiration is that familiar Death. See I live. On what? Neither childhood nor future grows less......Excess of being wells up in my heart.