You Mock Me

And I asked you to be a symbol of the strength that was once given Yet you mocked me Oh, the mockery And I place so much confidence in the lessons I swear you taught me Yet you mock me Oh, the mockery You taunt me about glory days You say my best is yet behind me You just bring up old stuff; our relationship is so unhealthy So codependent, you cut me Down You blame me, I blame me And I'm a man and I won't crack and I won't show emotions right I do just like my daddy did and his did I bury you I build me a mausoleum with a storage unit attached to it just for you And I've grown so very weary at failing to make you stay there I hate it when you show up at my functions; you're so pompous And without an ounce of shame, you almost ruined my marriage You mocked me Oh, the humanity And I try to upgrade the way I speak and raise my daughter But every time I open my mouth, all I hear is my father And the same foolish pride and pitfalls that he installed Leap through my pores like, "Poor me", so annoying And I place so much faith in you, but you let me down I see my own eyes in my eight-year-old when I correct her Why won't you go away? You smirk as you chase me You a coy Helen of Troy that toys with emotions And feeble-brained boys like me fall for it every time You mock me And I'll probably do my best to convince you that I'm the victim And you just don't believe me You insist you are me And I've ran and I've ran, yet your stride is identical Every step I took, your foot fit right in it Why can't I shake you? I just can't shake you You are my past Why won't you stay there? You that pain that guides us Strings that tie us That coincidence that proves to us God's existence The joy I misplaced Beautiful mistakes A scarlet thread My crimson cord