Today I Cried

[Verse 1: Professor Green] I only went and fucking did it Used to be a dream but now I fucking live it Weren't even writing raps I was down and out about to fucking quit it Lucky for me that I fucking didn't See lily came along when I was at my lowest Selling wraps of coke not the raps I flow with I made it and I owe to a chat I had with her Who knows where I'd be if that chat hadn't occurred Back with the bag, with the bag full of herbs init Instead I got her on a track and I murdered it My name started causing murmurs in the industry But none of these labels would work with it until Virgin did Put my first single out and we earned a hit That's why we never... I know it must burn a bit Just did a show and everybody knew the words to it The day I risked everything for I couldn't have given anything more all these years... But this is something that nothing could have readied me for What you think all my problems are remedied cos' I get an applause, there not [Hook] Today I cried And I don’t know why But today I cried And I don’t know why [Verse 2: Professor Green] My single went in at 3 My album went in at 2 For a debut not to shabby if I have to I make do Finally some form of reward for the things I came through But it's different to the perfect picture people paint you On the way up you might be a person people take to Then you break through and the same people who rated you hate too All of a sudden anything you do may do may make news And I'm sick to death of explaining wats is and ain't' true Spend a day in my shoes and maybe you would feel the same too Though I know I've got to make the most of it there will be no take 2 And ungrateful I would hate to seem cos' I'm leaving my dream now But I don't sleep now And all the hours awake are making me senile Snapped every time I'm seen out Even people I've been round my whole life are looking at me like I'm a new me now They say I've changed but I really don't see how I've always lived my life taking corners that I can't see round Never knowing what it is I'm trying to seek out But I'm even beginning to question me now [Hook] [Verse 3: Professor Green] I know it must seem mad to you It's mad to me All I've done is what I've had to do Been who I've had to be But the path I've walked has been so gravely It's been a shame to remain humane amongst all this inhumanity Thankfully, I had nan who was a mum and dad to me You can choose your friends but you can't choose your family Temporary happiness for me has been a fallacy It's so sad isn't it, stick your sympathy it means jack to me Sick of hearing how happy I should be I just don't know how to be I can no longer pretend No more making out to be Maybe all I needs a slap Someone to shake it out of me Help dispel my irrational thoughts think more rationally Sick of being in the state of vanity, it's agony Am I torn or is it all some twisted form of vanity? Can it be I'm really just obsessed with myself, obsessive compulsive depressed, by pressures reflecting my health? Taking care of my career but I'm neglecting myself Rejected therapy? No, I just won't except any help I pride myself on my honesty but in all honesty today I lied I was asked how I was and I said I was fine, I'm not [Hook]