I Don't Hate You

[Intro] Yeah. What's up man? How longs it been? How longs it been Dad? I don't know. I'd say about... [Verse 1] 16 years since you went searching for the holy ghost And got lost along the way like money in the post Holier than most is how you used to act Walking round with your Bible spitting out quotes like they were facts Paint it black Men women children as well If you don't worship god then you're going to hell Always had to take it one step further you couldn't just pray nope's Had to shove it down peoples throats like gay blokes Like that Basement Jaxx song where's your head at When did you lose your mind same time your hair fell out And your beard started to grow grey hairs started to show Or was it when you started speaking in tongue on road I was only 6 years old how could you subject me to that shit Verbal syphilis complete fucking gibberish I was sick of it but too afraid to say Only saw you once a fortnight at of all of them you had to choose that day To Bible bash evangelising in the street Looking like a tramp who collected trash Even though you was brass you could have tried to look normal Even if you was fucked in your head its awful I know but I'm glad you done a disappearing act screw you How could I ever introduce anyone to you Baby this my dad he's a religious nut. (“oh, hello... what the fuck!”) [Hook] I don't hate you I don't love you neither You mean nothing to me your just another geezer I won't hit you Still I won't hug you neither If we ever meet again cold is how I'm gonna treat ya [x2] [Verse 2] When we talk about your antics now there always met with laughter “Did he really used to make you pray before you ate a mars bar?” Yes every time we put something in our mouths we had to pray to Jesus Why the fuck you think I never used to eat Malteaser's I slag you off now and don't feel bad about it afterwards Just like all the other kids abandoned by their fathers “i hate my dad, Homer Simpson look-a-like fat bastard!” Yeah, well at least you weren't stuck with Ned Flanders Who the fuck was I supposed to go to for answers? Hey mum what's this sticky shit in my pyjamas? You weren't around to teach me shit Sold your own kids for some bitch And no one's seen you since But I bet you turn up when I'm rich chatting shit Like it weren't your fault Probably blame it on your bitch cause your bitch minds warped We could here it in her voice every time she talked me and Lauren were young but we weren't dumb we knew what was going on First time I met her when she was just your wife to be I remember that something just didn't seem right to me From what I could see it was simple and plain She had you under manners like a dog on a chain Sometimes I used to wonder where you were and why you left Was it all because of her or what you thought was best But times have changed and I'm used to you not being there So now I no longer wonder nor do I care You could be dead for all I know Even more fucked up in your head for all I know Cause all I really know is that you left without saying bye And ain't ever looked back since Yes there was a time you could have built a bridge but now the gaps to great And you might find if you try it'll jus collapse under the weight Cause now its far too late cause we all grown up How can you be part of our lives now when you've missed so much (that's why!) [Hook] [Verse 3] You can't run away from your past cause your past is hereditary The blood that courses through my veins is your legacy And will probably be the only thing ever left to me from you Cause just like you I myself have been gifted with a musical talent Except I go by the name of Ben Drew not Paul Ballance You lived your life like your namesake hung in the balance Then you fell off the wagon and now the only thing that's apparent is You ain't half the man you used to be But I am more than you could ever be Cause you could never see the world as I see it Where as you try to be something you ain't ..I be it And real fast your past is coming back to haunt you Its gods will that such a big mistake like me should taunt you Daunt you Like a nervous feeling in your gut I call it fate, but you can call it whatever the fuck you want You're just a lost little boy so here's one less worry for ya I don't hate you I just feel sorry for ya In fact I pity you I got so much shit on you If I saw you on the street, I wouldn't even spit on you But I don't hate you, Hating takes too much effort And you ain't worth the fucking time of day As for love, that went when you went, Long ago [Hook]