Everyday

(Chorus) x2 Every morning when I wake Every morning when I wake This is my life everyday this is my life everyday (Verse 1) Wake up in the morning notice, something ain't right 'Cus although the sun is shining, there is no light I open up my curtains, wipe the sleep from my eyes, too tired to realise I've lost my sight Blinded by my ignorance, I prepare my self for the day, thinking this sinking feeling will go away As I set off on my track, the little voice in my head says "turn back," but when I want to turn back it's too late Darkness surrounds, me drowning me in sorrow, 'cus I know today will be no different from tomorrow Hope is quickly fading, soon I'll be too far gone for saving, my soul will go and leave my body hollow And still in the face of adversity, I search for an inner strength, try and stand firm with both fists clenched But I can't find my heart, it's like the fucking thing's deserted me, it used to be there, this makes no sense So I pray to a God that I'm not even sure if I believe in To help me in my hour of needing and keep me breathing I pray to this God that created a place called Eden A paradise to put Adam and Eve in But I don't think he hears me speaking I'm starting to weaken Now I'm reaching for what's fake Poison in my body to escape Suddenly I'm overwhelmed with optimism, my shoulders no longer feel the weight Yeah, life feels great, but it's fake (Chorus) (Verse 2) It's fake 'cus I know the smile on my face is only there 'cus I'm too intoxicated to care Inside my soul I can't find no hope, just a gaping hole where it used to be there An unmendable tear That when I'm sober hurts more than I can bare It just ain't fair And soon I'll be back in normality When the poison wears off and my whole bodies aching from the pain of reality The pain of reality, starts to grab at me Love is a fallacy and I'm staring straight at death as it tries take another stab at me I'm down on my knees And I'm begging "Someone hear me, please answer my questions? "Why is my life just one big deep depression? "Is this God's way of teaching me a lesson?" Forgive me Father for I have sinned This is my confession I do bad things and I don't know why I do 'em I try to do good deeds but people see right through 'em I can't ge't close to no one, 'cus they won't let me How can I feel like a man if they don't respect me? Is that my heart I feel starting to sink? As the more I talk, I'm starting to think That maybe I feel this way because of the mistakes I've made, and it ain't got shit to do with no one else I can only blame myself It's me who's bad for my health And only I can rectify what is wrong in my life if only I tried a little bit Harder It all comes down to a choice, what would I rather Stay how I am And watch the days get darker or forgive myself? Get on with my life And not Look back after.