My Two Dads

[Verse One] I never really knew my dad, I picture him so cold He beat me in my crib when I was six months old And mom kicked his ass out of her fort Gave up on us and never paid child support Mom worked mornings at seven, night an arcade Go with her to work by myself is how I played Made games up, used to like to get muddy Not too interested in friends, mom was my buddy I want to bear hug her while cursing his name Cause he don't give a shit what his son has became No interest in my well being or where I'm at I'm glad I didn't have a coward raise me flat Save myself from combat in this fucked up mess I could use some money but he don't know my address And actually I think you owe mom a healthy sum You better cut her a check before this song is done It didn't really bother me you left us alone But when I heard we had the same laugh over the phone That fucked me up, how does that shit work? I must be like him and he is such a jerk And me? I'm a failure who's grown a dark heart Who sits by and watches as his life falls apart So no thanks to you that I'm still alive So much love for my mom and we will survive [Verse Two] Since the biological didn't bother to bother This other guy made a clumsy try at being a father With his first daughter, things got wild And I literally became a red headed step child And another girl came and his kids rule He treated me like shit so I became cruel Couldn't take it to him so I took it to my sisters I worked so hard at that, that I got blisters I was such an asshole, I apologize How I must look to my sisters, I'm terrified When him and mom split, things chilled a bit We were no longer going at each other in the pit And with age some of us actually matured And find ways to deal with things that have occurred So now he's kind of taken the place of a dad It ain't a lot but it's something I've never had