Father

[Verse 1: Phora] Yeah, alone in this room, just me and my conscious Wondering if the lord's really watching cause If he is then tell me why I've been going through hell Lately and I just don't feel like heavens an option Look, I feel the guilt pouring in I wonder if he feels my pain Cause everyday its getting more intense Moms could barely afford the rent Had to do some shady shit to survive But I just hope the lord forgives Is he forgiving like they say he is Is there anyway away from this Is there even anyplace where kids go when they pass away I heard somebody say there is But I don't know who to trust no more And grandma said I really shouldn't cuss no more But I just tell her "I'mma try" and knowing I'mma stay the same I try to change so many times, I can't adjust no more [Hook: Phora] Shit, but father when will I see more smiles and frowns Where do I go when I'm buried deep in the ground Father why is the world never holding me up I feel like I'm always letting you down I feel like I'm always letting you down [Verse 2: Phora] I feel like I'm always letting you down I often wonder bout who I'm a disappointment to But no matter how good you do, they still point at you Sometimes I don't know how I get through the day Cause even though you see me smile, it don't mean I'm okay I just don't wanna be bothered with questions Father why these cats always causing problems I've been constantly stressing Shit, I wonder if he's even listening to me Searching for answers, but ain't nobody giving em' to me Plus my girl needs attention, I can feel the tension My pops is on a drinking binge And he's on the break of an intervention But he taught me so much with only his actions What I learned from him, he would never imagine If there was something that I would want him to know Every mistake he made, it was all meant to happen No time wasted cause I learned from it all Made me a better man inside, made me learn when I fall There's always a reason to get back up on your feet So if you hear me lord, I hope you could answer this for me [Hook: Phora] Father when will I see more smiles and frowns Where do I go when I'm buried deep in the ground Father why is the world never holding me up I feel like I'm always letting you down I feel like I'm always letting you down