Alive

{Verse 1} Why's it 2 o'clock in the morning Outside all I hear is your car starting The dogs barking, thinking the same as me Why you up at this hour? Why you gotta leave? Yesterday I found baking soda in your trunk Tellin' me it was there to take away all the skunk All the mildew and mold You lie like Phil do You hold your stash so you can cut down your coke Eleven years old, oh I was so young Never did know, damn I was so dumb Is this hereditary? For me to fail again Walk around my own house living with a alien I swear, this ain't my fathers face, nah it ain't his skin What type of fuckin' place is this to raise a kid up in? Tryin' get through, all the shit I've been All I know, me and Momma just try live again [Hook] Haley, we made it out alive Don't tell me, we bout to lose the fight Just one more, oh, one more night We made it out, we made it out this mother fucker alive {Verse 2} I swear when you left a part of me died All those nights with Mom, watching her cry Havin' a hard time drying my own eyes Fightin' to wake up every day tryin' to keep it all inside You should have saw her, she so weak back then I thought you were dead, we didn't speak back then Thrown us both away for a motel and a crack pipe It was probably all so perfect in a past life My songs were the only thing to make me act right Grammys probably so proud, I chose my path right All those letters you wrote mom when you black out Picking me up from sport games all cracked out So lost that, I needed a signal Thinkin' bout all the shit, me and Mom been through Crack these jokers windows thinking it would get you I'm sorry if it hurts, this the only thing I vent through [Hook] Haley, we made it out alive Don't tell me, we bout to lose the fight Just one more, oh, one more night We made it out, we made it out this mother fucker alive {Verse 3} I know you take back, the act going on, blackmailin' Mom I know you give back, the insurance money, admit you were wrong What if you had to live with the fact I chose the same path as you Smoking, poppin' pills, dropping out of school I forgive, I definitely don't forget & I ain't done healing, am I suppose to yet? Sorry I write these fuckin' records where I bash you But you made your bed and sometimes see I have to Medicate myself, man of the house Since you and Phil left, I designate myself Yeah Mommy I fuckin' love you No one gun' hurt you no more, angels above you Dad I forgive you, I pray you remain clean I'm just glad you're alive to see me live out this dream [Hook] Haley, we made it out alive Don't tell me, we bout to lose the fight Just one more, oh, one more night We made it out, we made it out this mother fucker alive