Own Appeal

(Verse 1) I never asked to be born, and death's no question The sun's still shining off the same old lessons Then why does life feel like an educated guess and My thoughts are like meals I'm a sucker for the seconds Impressions got a lot of us stressing, but how we are perceived is more about a reflection The reception warm that I receive Which leads to believe these hoes like what I heave Tall women in heels, tour money and deals Off the no bull I like all money for real More time aboard and less time at home Less time for broads and more time in zones Yeah, I'm in it while flying out of another one This is a new beginning, I'm climbing out of the other one The dream feel real'er than it ever been And I was aiming high like a nigga being president The possibilities of that are seeming pretty evident So being self employed is not seeming like a definite But staying that way is what I'm F'ing with And like minded people are the only ones I'm messing with (Hook) This so real, not knowing what's ahead but I'mma go there still Living in the moment got a hopeless feel but the feeling in itself got it's own appeal But I know, I'm attracted to the lights in the distance The closer that I get and the brighter my wish gets Excited by the risk and the chances I'm taking Not sure what I'm putting my faith in but I'mma be alright (Verse 2) I'm trying to get mine in this life time The after life is much further in pipeline I'm in inclined to believe that but truth is, that for death, any moment is the right time So I live like everyday is my last But I plan for tomorrow as if I will never pass A Pharoah on the subway Who never had dreams of jets but fell asleep on run ways I just know that one day, that anything I needed I could mold Get everything you want it ain't always good for the soul A mix of self worth, some help, a little control And I don't know the rest, good as mine is your guess The recipe ain't the best, to make it though is our quest And if you choose to accept, the meaning of life is yes Cause only God knows, those of us in the flesh, get the privilege of test Some will fail and some will pass We all get the same grade though when we run the path But how you grade your self is the mark that will matter most To separate the heart of the strong and the battered folks Have a dose (Hook) (Verse 3) Ayo, shit so real, I kill shit to live nigga, schizo feel I got a hunger for knowledge and I miss no meals I stay high off life and I miss no pills I'm addicted to thrill of walking along the edge Not knowing what lays ahead but always knowing the deal I'm good with my decisions, the set backs and gains Is all apart of the game, I'm ready to spin the wheel What ever is in store, I'm ready for, for sure The attitude of wealth with the gratitude of the poor The balance is the challenge and I sit so still Between callus and analysis but this no frills I'm off the chain, been that way since slaves to Flav From 93 till infinity I'm slated in ways That's etched in stone The age where we market out selves I'm still all about the music I don't monitor plays I don't monitor hits and I don't monitor clicks I monitor the snare drum and the bottom of kicks Is anybody left that still fuck with this true shit Well let me hear you scream over top of this CRU shit (Hook)