Back of My Mind

[Verse 1: Oddisee] Welcome to the back of my mind Where brain cells are chained cells, locked in solitary confine I hope that they may never see shine Where the insane dwells is not a place for people, way to Lethal at times See the demeanor I present you is kind But the truth is I'm ruthless I plan to do this until I'm toothless and dying See I've realized it now, that most of my pals Will never get the Chance to see what they were dreaming about Well look at me, I must be a nightmare for those Who was right there, so close, not close enough to see May you live vicariously, if you helped Me on my feet, know i'ma be there, always around Ironically the honesty is profound It's the ones that left me on the ground that don't fuck with me now Die slows brothers, die Painfully I'm in the, back of my mind this ain't a thing to me I'm trying to be a better person, the more I get ahead I worsen I use to have a higher tolerance For when people be talking shit Now I just put them on mute when they're cursing I know we ain't Perfect but I try to be above stooping low Negativity ain't worth the exertion But lately the Thoughts in the back of my brain that I contain Be leaking out, I'm speaking out through these Verses this is what it is, cut throat is the biz You either hold the knife or hold the wound, I'm Trying to live My competitions in need of no help, they're good at killing them selves But I assist Them, cause I hate to see them bleeding on shelves I'm pretty selfish & I know it, i do my best Not to show it Sometimes though I can't control it, i let it go & expose it I say some shit that's Insulting & proud that I am the culprit & hope you find it revolting, that what's from the back of My mind