Autobiography

[Spoken] This is the autobiography of Nicki Maraj [Hook] May the lord protect me, as the world gets hectic My voice projected, my life reflected [Verse 1] Daddy was a crack fiend, two in - The morning, had us running down the block, like a track team When you burnt the house down and my mother was in it How could I forget it? The pain is - Infinite,she's my Queen, and I ain't even British She is the only reason, that I went to school and I finished She told me that I had talent, got on her knees And prayed for me, when I started being violent She saw something in me that, 'til this day - I don't know if I could be that But I'mma die tryin', and when I'm done cryin' - Grab the iron and black out, like I'm retiring Nightmares of you, killing my mother The reason that I sleep, with my head under the covers And they should've thrown a book at you - Cause I hate you so much, that it burn when, I look at you [Hook x2] [Verse 2] Damn, I wanna run to you - Hold you and kiss you, and tell you how I miss you - Thought I would have a son for you, but now? It's official, it's over and I can't let you go But I gotta let you know, all the shit I did Made me feel like, I'm dyin real slow Cause no one understands me, they don't know - What to do when I'm hurt, when I'm angry You was my friend, and my man and my daddy You was there, when that bitch tried to stab me Anything I ever needed, knew you had me Cause of you, all them chicks couldn't stand me So why I hurt you? That's the question It took this long, for me to learn my lesson Cause now all I want is peace, forget drama I finally understand, the true meaning of karma [Hook x2] [Verse 3] Please baby forgive me, mommy was young Mommy was too busy, tryn'a have fun Now I don't pat myself on the back, for sending you back Cause God knows, I was better than that To conceive you then leave you, the concept alone seems evil I'm trapped in my conscience, I adhered to the nonsense Listened to people who told me, I wasn't ready for you But how the...(fuck) would they know, what I was ready to do? And of course, it wasn't your fault It's like I feel it in the air, I hear you sayin' - "Mommy don't cry, can't you see I'm right here?" I gotta let you know, what you mean to me When I'm sleeping, I see you in my dreams with me Wish I could touch your little face, or just hold your little hand If it's part of God's plan, maybe we can meet again [Hook x2]