Loner

Where do I go, which way do I turn Searching for that love I so desperatly yearn Fading memories of a past I'd soon forget Isolated and alone waiting for the one not met Is it vision or does she really exist Illusion of a fantasy like a ship in the mist The truth of it all remains to be seen For in this moment of time I can only dream Laying awake I stare into the night Doom and dread surround, like the demons I fight River of emotions flow like a swift moving tide Spiraling so fast downward I slide Will ever I find that peace, I do not know Breaking down more with each passing blow Desperation and pain a part of everyday life Words not spoken that cut like a knife My life?