Fatherless Child

Feels better if I tell em my story Yo, on November 24th, 1999 I was in L.A., and I was in the kitchen cookin And I got this page right And uh, I called back and I was informed that My father had passed away from a herion overdose About two hour's earlier So this song is for him, and to him And for all the fatherless children in the world The mother's who raised us, the people who love us [Verse 1] It's a Monday, finally found the perfect beat To speak my peace on how I came to be The way I was raised, how I was born Why I smile so sad, and have the eyes of a storm Moms from Virginia, you from Rhode Island Met up in the state where the sun's always smilin Minds connected, physicals exchanged Y'all both believin that the world can be changed Time passed to 1973, and you begged my mom to create me First she said no but she loved you too much 1974 had a child to touch We was into other things, that ripped life scenes Liqour, drugs, other women, destroyin dreams But you know how women be, she tried to hold on For the sake of your love and the beautiful bond [Hook] I'ma fatherless child, it's all I ever been It's all I ever be, since your gone from me Still I hope you know, that I can never unlove you, love you [Verse 2] 1974 was a year things changed Too much alcholol makes people violent and strange You broke the window's with a baseball bat As my mother cried inside with me on her lap The dream destroyed, it was time to leave She didn't take much, just a few things of lovin me That was the birth of this fatherless child And a struggling mother with the world in her eyes She did it though, put herself in college Raisin me wit grace, givin me the knowledge And pops you, you never came by Never sent money never called to say hi I use to lie to the other kids, on the block Say I knew where you was at so the questions would stop I fronted to my friends that you didn't mean much But I use to cry alone, and lone for your touch [Hook] [Verse 3] Ninth grade I thought you were dead Call my mom about a paper, and that's what you said I was angry and confused, all because of you Wanted to ask you why, and just say fuck you(fuck you!) But the feelings passed, what was my options? Studyin my face tryna find what was lost and I decided that you didn't mean shit That I was really worth lovin and you lossed a gift Before that, I grew breast and things Got raped in the bathroom, and the question sings What it have, could it have, should it have Been different if I had yo hand to grab? Would I be easier to love, not so torn inside If you would've beat that man, and stood by my side? Would I write sad songs, and call pain daily? How different would I be if you had raised me? [Hook] [Verse 4] 1997, you called my home From Telegraph&43, for the child you never owned I told you come by, Adam came to help me You were homeless and drunk, but not lookin uhealthly We sat for hour's, I asked you every question We sang on my porch and discussed life lession's And I loved you, like you had always been they're You said you'd never leave again, so I released my fears 1999, tryna to sign my deal Ten years of hard work, finally becomin real So I brush you off, writin songs for a movie That was the last time I saw you, forgive me truly The day my deal was done, you died Wit the needle in your arm, and angels by your side And I miss you, tattooed it on my back Fatherless child, fade to black [Hook 2x]