Drive Me Crazy

[Verse 1] It's a lot to life that I don't understand Probably cuz I ain't trusting God You know, more in man I'll be honest, at times I don't really care Cuz I'm selfish and rather go about my own plans But Even tho I'm doing wrong I Know the right way to go And even on the wrong road I still manage to make it home Cuz... It's both the destination And the journey And I'm just tryna make it in I'm hoping heaven heard me I don't know about these doctrines (doctors) All I know is my faith Couldn't tell denominations If they looked me in the face Ain't hesitant to pray Ask God the motive in this pain Ask myself, did I hear him Or am I too deep in my shame Too deep in my blame Blaming everyone that's not I Happens all the time when I stare into these brown eyes At least I recognize Tho it hurts me to admit I'm a perfect imperfection With a heart of good intent But it [Hook Mychelle & Janae] It keeps stressing me stressing me Think I'm going out my mind And it's borderline depressing me Open my eyes so that I can see Maybe a sign or a line For a little bit of clarity I Get out my mind I get Out of my mind It gets A little crazy lately Driving me crazy lately I get out my mind I get Out of my mind It gets A little crazy baby Driving me crazy lately [Verse 2] Hospital bed, situation's testing me Moved into a nursing home The youngest next to Valerie Praying on a daily so it doesn't Get the best of me Tho inside I'm in tears Hating how it's affecting me Got IVs in both arms Tubes outta my chest Busting at the seams Afraid of what'll happen next I'm the strongest kid they met Yet, I'm scared out of my knickers Staring at a bag that's got my life In some elixir (man) How did I get here (what) How is this me (hold up) Is this real life (slow up) Is this tv Grandma told me and she showed My days numbered by obedience If I respect my momma, I'd live longer Than my premium Feeling like I messed up That I brought this on myself I'm sitting here in silence And I ain't liking that sound I'm just, a broken vessel that's Been longing for repair From a potter with gifted hands To piece together what I can't Cuz it... [Hook] [Verse 3] Time is everything we pray To have enough of The Second currency we bet our life And our grind on but I had my hand at the roll of the dice With every flick of the wrist I hit them snake eyes twice Seeing so much red you would've Thought I was delirious Hiding from the crowd hesitating So they mirrored it I reveal myself, stage left and Pull the curtains To magnify my thoughts so you Can see beneath the surface A life that's worth living but It's being deemed as worthless Cuz these nights of endless hurting Forfeits walking in purpose I'm for certain, in question Try to question it all It's like I try, (I try) Revved up and then I stall I'm out mind (my mind) I could've risked it all/ And now I'm losing it Confusing it Illusions with Hallucinogens Lost so much I can't lose it again Just tryna reach the end before I lose it again Cuz...