Weight of Water

[Hook] What you want me to do? I’m losin’ my mind, I’m runnin’ out of time What you want me to do? What you want me to do? They always clip my wings every time I try to fly What you want me to do? What you want me to do? Despite how hard I try, nothin’ ever goes right What you want me to do? [Verse 1] I live between a rock and a hard place This far from a lost fate The weight of water is denser than what you all think I’m just a regular nigga, despite what ya’ll say These past months been so hard for me My dreams are slippin' so far away I wake up every morning hoping things are gon’ get better But nah, there’s a demon on me and it seems that she won’t let up Ha, yeah I said her I’m royally convinced that if the devil had disciples They don’t have to be a bitch in all religions But I opened up the Bible just for comfort And the first line I read said: “How long wilt thou […]” I took that as a sign that this should be my final rhyme By the time that someone hears this I’ll still be tryin’ to decipher that shit [Hook] [Verse 2] Lately smiles are few and far between And I’ve been havin’ all these awkward dreams I barely write ‘cause I ain’t inspired by anything I wrote this inspired by my pain So many things on my brain that’s creatin’ strain Like for instance, I feel like my niggas don’t pull they weight Or they afraid, they let life get in the way Or they don’t understand what’s at stake Or that we older and time just slippin’ away The world is colder Everyday the weight of water’s on my shoulders, it’s gettin’ denser So many sins, I think I should repent some, but I ain’t though Cause you can't grow believing everything you hear Now what’s fucked up can be replaced with just blind faith But then to mention that’s too easy If God forgives, the devil don’t forget And Tyler Perry can't save you from your mother’s skeletons There’s just some things you gotta live with I live with my decision that if hip-hop is the death of me Then that’s just what it is Sounds ignorant, but it makes perfect sense to me Before I succeed being you, I’d rather fail just being me And if I succumb to this pressure Bury me with a snorkel And say that I drowned Under the weight of water [Hook]