Nuthin' Even Matters (Regrets)

[Hook] Nuthin’ even matters (Nuthin’ really matters) Nuthin’ even matters to me (When misery is all I see) Nuthin’ even matters (Nuthin’ even matters) Nuthin’ even matters to me (When misery is all I see) Mommy, you used to hold me, tell me I was the best Anything in this world I want I could possess All that made me want was all that I could get I’m tryin’ to survive, tell me how I live with these regrets? How I live with these regrets How I live with these regrets How I… How I… How, how, how I How I live with these regrets How I live with these regrets How I… How I… How, how, how [Verse 1: eXquire] I wake up in the morning no earlier than three I scratch my ass and yawn, then I get up and go pee Then Jimmy Neutron’s on This is my favorite episode where he goes through a time warp And meets himself when he gets old, and he ain’t shit I guess that I relate to a degree My Momma claims she’s proud of me But I just cannot see how that could be I gave up my whole future just to chase my dream Now I feel like a loser who’s failed at everything (I mean) Maybe I shouldn’t have dropped out in 10th grade (I mean) Maybe I should’ve went to college up state (I mean) Maybe I shouldn’t have quit my good-ass job Or swallowed them sleeping pills after the shock of it all Or slapped the shit out my ex, then mess with the other one Consorted with hoes, popped pills like bubblegum My life’s a cornucopia of rigamarole Which sounds like some type of dish Can I offer a bowl? Its like… [Hook] [Verse 2] My life is a bitch and I ain’t got shit I know that sounds depressing, but it is what is it My insecurities made me a leech for love Happy just to get it anywhere that I could get it Though I wasn’t really feelin’ her Plastered at my photo shoot, drunk I was depressed Like somehow I can pretend that my life’s just not a mess Then niggas have the nerve to try to question what I am What you don’t fuckin’ understand is this is all that I have left And bitches say that dumb shit, “I’m too blessed to be stressed” But I was blessed with this talent; all it do is make me stressed All it do is make me guess: will I ever progress? Is success the architect behind the heartache and the stress I fight with every breath Yet nobody sees the ??? And lately its getting crazy and I’m runnin’ out of strength ??? so don’t you try to play me I ain’t weak and I ain’t lazy I’m just gettin’ to the point where… [Hook]