Hours Outside in the Snow

I spent all of Christmas Eve fake angry at you for Who knows what now or then and you spoke so fast I just sat back relaxed and took you all in I spent all of Christmas Eve trying to get warmer After standing outside for hours knowing at this point I'd be lucky to get any sleep And I'll toss and turn until the early morning Happily ignoring that my blue jeans Didn't do a fucking thing for me Against this cold Sober or not, I locked everything you sent me Cause what's better than seeing What I'm missing daily I guess what I'm trying to say is that You might run, oh but I won’t hide Shed an ounce of light On my half-hopeless life Don't let me go back And though I'd like to say more I guess, I'll just duck and cover Almost praying that you trip over The cluster of words I laid out before having to leave But since you've taken the time to read so carefully Everything I've ever sent I guess I'll spend the next few lines Hoping and wishing Yet thanking appropriately You might run, oh but I won't hide Shed an ounce of light On my half-hopeless life Don't let me go back To Erin: Please read later Cause I don't think I have the heart To let you read this now But if I had the heart You know that I know better This isn't how you say aloud "Don't let me go back"