My History Will Be The Death Of Me

I got the heart of the night on my sleeve And I see in the dark when I can't speak and I can't breathe I got the marks of a man under siege And I follow my gut like a cut when I can't see and I'm still here It's still me I got the fight of the lion in me And I clench my teeth when I can't speak and I can't breathe Because there's no words for this inability to see the Decency in these people around me Because I'm a bullfighter at the rodeo I hear the young hearts breaking on the radio And you got me good It's not my neighbourhood And I'm a long, long way away from home Baby, I'm gone, gone, spinning on out of this world Gotta simmer down, down, baby down the rabbit hole I got your number, honey bunny, and I'm ready to roll I got your number, honey bunny, and I'm ready to roll See, I get stuck from time to time, it seems And when I'm down in that rut, well there's no truth or clarity And all I see is my inhumanity But I still follow my dreams like a goddamn worker bee My history will be the death of me Still got a light, that kid keeps burning in me And I try to fight but I'm overwhelmed by empathy I got it bad, this ambivalence you see And the devil in me keeps on hollering up Because I'm a boneshaking daddy-o I left my heartstrings broken on the patio That shit is cold I left my soul by the side of the road Road blazing now I'm driving too slow I'm on the run, run, sugarbun, dumber than some Gotta cool it down, down, baby 'cause it burns like the sun I got your picture in my wallet and that shit weighs a ton I got your picture in my wallet and that shit weighs a ton Baby, I'm gone, gone, spinning on out of this world Gotta simmer down, down, baby, down the rabbit hole What's with the death wish? Let it slip, look at it snow I got my mind on my honey and my honey is on my mind I got my mind on my honey and my honey on my mind, on my mind, on my mind I don't mind, I don't mind, I don't mind