I'm Alive

[Intro: Tyrese] + (Mic G) Had a moment to myself (back y'all, it's been a struggle) And I asked (I'm here) why me? (and that's cool, yeah) All these ups and downs (yeah) Ooohhhh no no why me? [Verse One: Mic Geronimo] A manic depressive, well what could be as bad as this Where I'm locked in the bathroom, cuttin my wrists Could it be that I'm tired of my life goin one way The same-ass struggle from Sunday to Sunday Damn, I used to keep a hundred grand And it hurts when my girl sayin she don't understand And she cry too, sayin baby they denied you And you got them haters in the game who despise you Or could it be that I've been livin in a fantasy Thinkin niggas really cared, sayin they were family? A bad dream, seein 'em stand around And they watched me drown, I heard they mock me now Well fuck 'em! Now that I'm gettin back on my feet And I'm focused we all gon' sit down to eat And the streets said Mic man we need you back The game's a puzzle and son, you a piece of the rap And I love dat, that's why I'm doin what I'm doin Y'all and God the only things gettin me through it And when the rain rains hard, the sun will shine I'm only here to get mine, seen? [Chorus: Tyrese] + (Mic G) No one ever said it would be easy I know it takes a lot, to get by (yeah, I'm alive) Even when they ain't makin no room for me I'm makin room for me, watch me fly (yeah) [Verse Two: Mic Geronimo] Now, now - if you could see the pain in my eyes Shit I flew through the back windshield of my ride And I damn near died, and uhh What I've been goin through about three years It's been enough winter here I couldn't shed no tears Imagine losin everything you ever owned From your ice, crib, your whip, your girl and home And then, you and only you alone, gettin by And the man in the mirror he ain't nothin but a lie So you try hard, but you not gettin richer And you grind hard, but they won't see the picture So you say now, maybe I should leave the pain Hurts so bad, there's nothin I could never explain Then I said to myself, you control everything That's around you, nigga you the master Nigga suck it up, get your weight up, avoid your disaster Longer, stronger, harder, faster [Chorus] [Verse Three: Mic Geronimo] Before they speak a word against me, I have no shame Had to run and pull my chain in the pourin rain Before they, spread lies they best be raisin some questions I done, made mistakes I done learned from my lessons They gon' tell you my temper had me out of control I was blinded by the pot and wouldn't look at the road Some'll even say the closest motherfuckers to me got me By genorosity, prayin that my haters'll stop me Fuck 'em, I don't care, they gon' walk anyway Fuck 'em, I don't care, they gon' talk anyway And I've been through the drama, see this life's a strain Hope you never see what I did of the hurt and pain And I walk through this road with a cross to bear No mistakes I can think of or care to share Now I'm here, I'm a live mine 'til my death Kill the game 'til nothing's left, I'm alive [Chorus] - 2X (w/ ad libs by Tyrese) [Tyrese] Everything I do, everywhere I go They don't wanna see me grow They don't want me goin all the way I asked myself, why me? Why? Why don't they love me? They want it gone anyway, why they gotta pull me down? Everytime I try to come up, wanna pull me down All the way down 'Til I have nothin left What did I do to you? Oh no no What have I done to set them to?