Last Wxrds

I'm falling again/ realized I tripped and tried to stall it again/ it's scary because i'm scared of vanish/ i'm damaged I can not manage a relationship/ don't try with me cause i'm impatcient and I look for the exit the second things start to break n, I have an abondonment issue from my last girl that i'm still mad at but miss you and sometimes I still reflect on when I was with you & if you hear this which you won't I know but I can only hope you will, then talk to me/ tell me how you're doing/ tell me that i'm stupid/ tell me how every single thing I did was the reason that we ruined & afterwards tell me that it's okay and we're forever in love & our endevours didn't go to waste/ god I hate myself for everytime I didn't hold your waist/ I coulda done it more. and I shoulda so I guess the glass is half empty and smashed all over the wall because we got into another brawl bickering and shoving eachother/ lovin' the thunder because we know it leads to lightning after the fighting we'll be lighting the room after the boom brides maid vs the groom and after I tell you I hate you i'll be tellin you how much I love your perfume then i'll go back to hurt you/ it's a vicious cycle, she wants to call me mister; I admitt I miss her/ it's so hard to resist her the mixture of feelings I got toward her are thicker and thicker by the minute she bickers it's so hard to quit her and her evil flickers when all I can think about are her fingers woven into mine and pictures upon pictures that I got of us/ the thought of us is killin me & fillen me with mixed emotions that I bottle so they enstill in me & the feelings that I had from our first kiss are still in me and now they spillin we had something so magical it's like the world was our disney castle that turned into a caged animal un tamed/ cannibal thinkin' we were compatable but ended up unfathomabley two different people/ who's ignorance seeped through/ we knew we were in the wrong place being a couple seen as trouble but love you anyway leavin you wasn't something I had in mind but you was always bluffin threatening dipping but I never thought you would & now i'm stuck reminicing in the place that we stood I feel like this is my last word I got so I better make it good