Numb

[Hook] Staring in the mirror like I'ma wake up in a minute this ain't real life Yet to shed a tear, I Swear to God the way I thought it'd feel like That the clocks stopped tickin' That the world stopped spinnin' And the dark blocked out the sun But after all this time still all I feel is numb [Verse 1] It might sound selfish but I really need you right now Without someone to bounce shit off I lock all this inside now Won't lie now, feel like I'm in a trance or in depression In the past, you always had the answers to my questions Do nightmares last forever? How long these bad dreams gon' come? Will this shit get better? When we gonna see the sun? How come they didn't see that lung? Why'd they tell you see it shrunk? When all that fucking treatment done Is make you sicker, weak and numb? All these questions eat me up How do we find peace? Have you found it? It would mean a ton Why I feel the need to run? And do you think that shes the one? And when you're looking down, are you proud when you see your son? You said its gon' be hard, but we don't even know Cuz now you're in the ER, with trouble breathing tho Tell me you'll be alright, I really need to know Now I'm sitting at your funeral, my tears ain't even flow What the fuck is wrong with me, man I don't even know Family friends are all around I'm just like please leave me lone 4 days after you leave us yeah I'm out here playing shows I'm just going thru the motions no emotion and it shows [Hook] Staring in the mirror like I'ma wake up in a minute this ain't real life Yet to shed a tear, I Swear to God the way I thought it'd feel like That the clocks stopped tickin' The world stopped spinnin' And the dark blocked out the sun But after all this time still all I feel is numb [Verse 2] You put us first and you were last If I reversed, and lived the past I wouldn't roll my eyes and laugh And criticize and say you nag The pent up feelings that I had I never let myself feel sad This goes for me, Joey and dad Hook up this IV, inject this saline bag Time for ITP, oh its not all that bad You really gotta eat, but don't eat this, eat that We never took a second to enjoy what left we had Yeah, now I'm filled with all these regrets I wish I let you closer, I wish that you could read this I wish that you could be here guess the coping never ceases You're the glue held us together feel we’re broken into pieces I wish that you could be here for the weddings of your three kids Walk Melissa down the aisle, plan it, make it seamless And be the worlds best grandma to my nephews and my nieces And when me and Liz have kids you could spoil them to pieces See, I look up at the stars and moon and I Close my eyes and then I try to think 'bout better times And when I look up and I hope you're doing fine I just wish that I could tell you I love you one more time