Letter To My Fan

[Intro] Kells, to my fans Hold me down mo'fucka And that's all I say [Verse 1 - Machine Gun Kelly] When that crowd leave will you stay for me? And if I don't become what they thought I was In the time I should and my hype dies, would you wait for me? Or be ashamed of me if I chose to bow out gracefully Cause I know if I don't wanna lose myself Then Hollywood ain't no place for me What if I told you I ain't quit And these drugs still was my rival Would you regret the fact that you sobered up And had more heart than your idol Or accept the fact that I'm just human Borderline suicidal And is it blasphemous that these two fingers mean more to me than my bible? Lord help cause I'm cause I'm hell bound With the weight of the world I'm held down Feels like I'm in hell now, maybe that's why I'm havin' this meltdown Maybe that's why I hate fame, maybe that's why this J's lit Cause I speak the real and get criticized So I inhale and don't say shit And I wake up, to the same shit Cameras on with their hands out And that fake smile that I hate now Cause they the one say I sold out They the one that will break out when I needed food for my daughter And I'm the one who can't grow up so these fans replace my father And these girls replace my momma, they give me love, I don't take it Cause fuck love, these fucking hugs weren't around before I made it And since I don't have no family EST is all that I got Either drop me now or you down for life Man it's EST or it's not [Hook - Dubo] This shit ain't right (uh) Cause whenever their wrong, oh it's my fault (my fault) This is my life (my life) Now tell me are you gon' ride 'till the wheels fall off? [Bridge - Machine Gun Kelly] 'Till the nightmares done 'Till the grey hairs come 'Till the friendship disappears that we've had since day one I said this is my life So tell me are you gon' ride 'till the wheels fall off? [Verse 2 - Machine Gun Kelly] What if this is our climax? What if everything peaks here? What if we never get big and these days add on like leap year? What if you were in my shoes? Do you think you can fit 'em? Or would put that gun to your fuckin' head And regret the fact that you in 'em Cause this ain't living, this shit prison Whatever you see in videos, this isn't Whatever I thought I knew, shit I didn't Dealing with the consequences of my decisions Traded the life of a lonely child That couldn't find anyone to get through For a life that's filled with cameras Critisize everytime that I move For the love I got for my fans And the loyalty for my man's Equaled out to the shows we dreamed of With them bodies pack to those stands And I did what they say I can't So I'm living proof that you can Go be great, chase your dream We only got one life and one chance [Hook] + [Bridge]