Contradict

[Verse 1] It's my life, my mind to make up Still figuring it out And everybody wants to help you on the way up But they all go missing when you're down Having mood swings, intense highs, dramatic lows Causing conflict in my brain, it's pandemonium I've just worked too hard to be letting anything put me off That's why I come across like I'm acting sanctimonious The most well-known broke rapper in the dole queue And the brokest well-known rapper that you know too Now I don't sign on, I be getting cash myself But if this show money stops coming in I'll be stacking shelves I feel lucky to be on any stage I perform on Now and then I still wonder if I got it all wrong Cause even fans judge you by the money that you make It's a love and hate relationship, kind of an oxymoron [Hook] And it's like I turn into a different person That I contradict myself all the time It don't mean that I make up lies It just means that I change my mind I don't know for certain, don't take my word for it I contradict myself all the time It don't mean that I make up lies It just means that I change my mind [Verse 2] Mind blown going slightly insane Opposite opinions coincide in my brain And in a moment I could just change to a totally different dude Talking to close friends like 'I don't know if we've been introduced' I'll be on my last legs knocking on heaven's door With a broken halo on top of these devil horns That wasn't a metaphor, I'm constantly getting torn Between my good and bad side its a problem I'll never sort Falling on deaf ears with every story I tell Feeling like I'm trying to play tug-o-war with myself I'm a grown man driven by a childhood dream I've been waiting for this since I had size one feet I told them I'd succeed I don't sit around wondering 'bout the "if's, but and maybes" I just hit the ground running I don't think about nothing, winning acting on instinct Idiotic genius, a walking contradiction [Hook] [Verse 3] Vivid imagery, lyrics leaked from a biro You could see my vision through cataracts and blindfold But even I tend to question it sometimes like my efforts won't suffice And I'm destined for a life of misery As a kid I had nothing to keep me motivated Nobody ever told me I was going places Looking for a happy medium between broke and famous Cause you've only made it when everyone thinks you're overrated [Hook]