Everything must change

Everything must change... I'm not some kinda superman I'm just tryna find who I am And get my future plan Don't know where I'm from Don't know what my aim is Don't know where I'm going Don't wanna be famous Don't wanna be that guy I need privacy but can't be low-key cause it isn't me Get pulled both ways and it tears me apart Seems for years I've been wearing this mask One to myself, another to the multitude Now I'm confused with which one of those is true In bed alone lyin myself I realize I was lying to myself Now I'm here, finding myself The truth's out there I'm a find it myself Forget going on a holiday bruv I just wanna change Everything... I wish that I could make a happy song But I'm depressed and I don't wanna carry on I don't know what you've been told G But no one alive truly knows me Forget rapping I should find a job I need direction, maybe a sign from God I'm tortured, the pain's tormenting my soul Got friends but I just can't pretend, I'm alone I'm haunted, by regrets and mistakes And everyday I'm just testing my fate Like a boxer that loves throwing rights at them But doctors warned him, he'll die if he fights again Sometimes it feels like the weight of the world is on my shoulders But that's just the way of the world It's getting colder, it's too cold Don't know much but I do know Everything must change... Must change... Must change... Must change... So I've made music that made my mum cry Bruv told me what happens when a loved dies Don't even recognize my own face sometimes Don't wanna stay around now, but I must try Someone, somewhere might understand I just don't wanna give my life to the fans I'm tryna do more than just be real In order to rebuild Everything must change... I'm just tryna survive today And live my life in a righteous way So I gotta watch what I decide to say My pride's at stake Don't wanna be described as fake My mind states, I rate And I'm wide awake But I need sleep and it's kind of late Don't wanna give them a reason to despise and hate So I'm tryna change Everything... All around me, my people's dying All being controlled by evil tyrants Lives lost due to needless violence Look to the sky, cause I need some guidance But it feels like nothing helps Gotta watch for my sister and my mum as well Everyday it feels like I'm stuck in hell I guess this is sort of how my brother felt... See... just gotta hold on Hope for the best... Prepare for the worst... Cause nothing is promised... All I know is... Everything must change...