Mad World

[Verse 1] What am I supposed to feel? If you can tell it than let it be known I'm trying to cope with my emotions and sever what's gone I think back to when Jeremy Jack died, and I looked in his mother's eyes And I could still hear Beverly moan That was the first time seein' my father cryin' Lightning struck twice on the night that they murdered Brian My only blessin' was followin' Mama's lessons And I can hear her screamin' down 'Baby, you better be strong!' Good advice bubble But it's only so long that I can go on, before I do find trouble Or trouble finds me, feel like I'm dreamin' I gotta deal with these Demons, tell 'em 'Devil you better be gone!' And find another home. Am I neglecting my family? I contemplate on whether I did my brother wrong Or did my sisters bad, because we had different Dads In this fucked up world, tryin' to weather the storm [Hook] So tell me whatchu waitin' on Whatchu lookin' for, whatchu plan to take along I can only deal with so much pain I fucked around and got stuck in the rain Will I make it home? So tell me whatchu waitin' on Whatchu lookin' for, whatchu plan to take along I can only deal with so much pain I fucked around and got stuck in the rain [Verse 2] I never smoked weed or drank alcohol, to stress I'm a factor Does that discredit my talent, make me less of a rapper? I'm less appealin' unless I'm peelin' some rollin' paper Or would it show I had swag, would it motivate ya? To want to buy an album, I'm feelin' this lies bitter Cause when you get some money, you tryin' to get high, swisher When shit change, then people chase after fame And haters think I'm to blame, but I feel a different vibe nigga I'm not immune to the sinnin and seein' shrugs But I gotta stop fallin' for women I meet in clubs And I know I'm in no moral position to be a judge But I never thought expressin' my feelings could be a drug I can't, keep goin' on like I'm goin' on Cryin', complainin' none of these women I've moved forward on And it's so annoyin', I'm tryin' to get back with my last girl I'm stuck in this mad world [Hook] So tell me whatchu waitin' on Whatchu lookin' for, whatchu plan to take along I can only deal with so much pain I fucked around and got stuck in the rain Will I make it home? So tell me whatchu waitin' on Whatchu lookin' for, whatchu plan to take along I can only deal with so much pain I fucked around and got stuck in the rain [Verse 3] Okay, lately I've been feelin' like I'm wasting my time Like there's, nothing here to occupy the space in my mind Except the empty void, nothing can feel, nothing fulfills What's lackin' except rappin', see, nothing is real I said some things about a rapper I spit in a harsh rhyme Not to say I take it back, can't cover a crossed line But when he lost his mother, I thought it was all fine Couldn't understand his pain until after I lost mine How, ironic a situation can become And why is it I've never met a woman I can reach some Sort of understandin', the more demandin' they get The more I push 'em away, the more they think I'm a dick Lord Is it me? Will I ever see the lights? Ski told me a pretty woman equals misery for life Now I'm thinkin' he was right Addicted to bad girls, until I give 'em up I'm stuck in this, Mad World [Hook] So tell me whatchu waitin' on Whatchu lookin' for, whatchu plan to take along I can only deal with so much pain I fucked around and got stuck in the rain Will I make it home? So tell me whatchu waitin' on Whatchu lookin' for, whatchu plan to take along I can only deal with so much pain I fucked around and got stuck in the rain