This Time

[Hook] This time, I feel lost In a world so cold and so lonely This time, I feel broke And if I left no one would even know me X2 [Verse 1] Would you? You wouldn’t, I don’t even know me Who Am I? God I keep wishing if only Could I work it out then maybe, hopefully I wouldn’t feel so broken, maybe it’s hopeless No-one’s even noticed, I’ve got the diagnosis It seems I can’t focus, mind's always in motion This isn’t me joking, I’m trying to be open There’s always this notion that I hate being social It often just depends on the moment at hand Ya don’t understand my life’s far from grand Just cause I’ve been to the states several times Doesn’t mean that my life is lead without a tear In the past 3 years, it’s been quite severe It’s not a healthy life when you need to escape, constantly So don’t be green, cause I have no mates In the same country... it’s drove me insane [Hook] This time, I feel lost In a world so cold and so lonely This time, I feel broke And if I left no one would even know me X2 [Verse 2] Lost and secluded I feel like a fool it’s Getting the best of me I feel like I’m useless But I try to use it, as a fuel to, my fire My entire mind and thoughts are confusing My train of thoughts wandering, its never been stopping It’s all so loud my head’s constantly throbbing The irony is that I suffer in silence it’s likely Part of my depression stems from my shyness This engine is ending, getting closer to heaven it's Like a virus, I’m trying, I can’t triumph Anxiety is quite and I’m a prisoner to my mind it's Solitary confinement, I can’t keep from crying I’m sick with depression and I’m sick of pretending I think Robin knew his ending then chose to end it I'm really upset that he lost to depression There’s no use in dwelling let's live in the present [Hook] This time, I feel lost In a world so cold and so lonely This time, I feel broke And if I left no one would even know me X2 [Verse 3] I feel like a loser, like some kinda mutant Anxiety is for those that live in the future And depression affects those stuck in the past it's Not you’re problem I’m trying my hardest I’m here, I’m there, I'm everywhere man I can’t control my feelings, it’s my burden damn! I know that I’m broken you don’t have to fix me I can’t do this to you it won’t change too quickly I need some help but it’s hard to admit And I can’t pile my shit on top of yours this Isn’t fair to you, I’ve always found it hard To let people in, I’m holding up this guard I know that you love me but please don’t judge me Cause I’ve felt so alone, my life’s been ugly This isn’t something I can keep tryna hide I can’t help the lying, fuck it I’m not fine!! [Hook] (Ft. Lil_Ramsic) This time, I feel lost In a world so cold and so lonely This time, I feel broke And if I left no one would even know me X2