Outro (I'm On My Way)

[Verse] I just wish things would start to make sense I've gotta get this shit, off of my chest Once and for all and be never looking back I'm doomed, in fact I'm shook and trapped I've told you my life and I've told you my name I've told you my life's just been going insane I'm not sure what else is left to say So I'm just gonna spit whatever's on my brain First things first my scales unbalanced Depressions the worst its shit I can't fathom I don't understand it you don't understand me I don't understand me and not even family Understands what is going through my noggin Shits been getting foggy I've been dodging problems Honestly the lights are on but the blinds are down how Do I cope when the sounds so deafening I've got no energy and now what's left of me Is stuck with lethargy, there's definitely no remedy Trust me I've fucking tried everything excessively When I got my headphones on there's nothing around me When I have em out I feel like I'm drowning Closed off from the world, locked in a dark room My life’s black and white, it’s unlike a cartoon My brain’s dead, deceased, it’s grey I’m a zombie At times I’d explode, like a fucking bomb these Days are hard I’m lonely I emotionally go Comatose I’m broken or my chromosomes In my dome open I overdose on my emotions I’m choking and no-one seems to notice That slowly my life is slipping out of my fingertips I fucking hate all of you, you’ve all been a dick You did this to me, it ain’t my fucking fault And now most my thoughts are locked in a vault Every time I lie and say that I’m fine I fucking die inside, I ain’t fucking fine With the God damn pain, as long as it’s beautiful What the fuck was I on? That shits ludicrous The ones that love me can’t see that I’m dead You wanna walk a mile in my shoes I bet Cause a mile in my head is way too fucking much You’d know if you were in here so don’t be quick to judge No-one understands what the fuck I’ve been through If you lived my life you’d feel the same too I’ve been going insane and it just gets darker The pain of my brain and the harm of my heart I've said it before and I’ll say it again I'd kill for my family but I'd die for my friends They say that “blood is thicker than water” Nah you got the quote wrong, this shit’s been altered “the blood of the covenant is thicker than the water Of the womb” man I wish it weren’t fucking true I’ve started to see my friends as family And my family as strangers, how can it be That the ones that share the blood in my veins Are the ones that made me life live in vain I feel like most of my family disown me Like I’m an alien, it shouldn’t matter if we’re alone In the universe if we feel alone on the Earth It’s a curse from birth, and it only gets worse The truth hurts and I would prefer The honest hardships than a comforting lie Or you won’t win the fight and might lose your life Nobody gets how close I’ve been to suicide Outcasted like Jesus I too have been crucified I’m on his right next to him dying slowly You might know him but you don’t know me It’s okay I’m used to it, I don’t even know me Man I’m a tourist in my own damn country I don’t even know what I’m saying anymore My thoughts are sporadic my brains in a war My habits nomadic I’m lost but I travel To try and find myself in this hell that’s erratic My schematics are torn I can’t find the pieces They’re exactly what I needed to fight my diseased head I write on my canvas yet I see no picture It may be gibberish but to me it’s my scripture So what if this is me constantly babbling I can’t help rambling I find it baffling But sometimes it all makes perfect sense I live my life unbalanced on the fence I can’t put my finger on it, I keep contradicting myself This hell is making me fucking think and dwell On the past how else can I say It makes sense it doesn’t it does, I’m done Where else can I run? I’ve got no-one to turn too Do I ask God? “Sam I don’t think he heard you” Who else can I ask you’re s’posed to be there for me I’ve thought about this so God damn carefully I said your name in vain but there’s no bolt of lightning You won’t strike me down yet you have everyone frightened "you have to be pure to get into heaven Of course I know that you won’t join the devil Just so long as you don’t do this or that” We live without freedom you’ve kept us trapped The government is God they stole the religion They won’t tell the truth they keep the facts hidden If God does exist and he is all loving No matter who you are he don’t want you suffering He wouldn’t even send the murderers to burn In eternal flame that shit’s just insane They made religion to separate the people The bible’s a best seller I’m surprised there’s no sequel God is good and the devil is evil Have you looked at these words they’re made to deceive you Drop the ‘o’ and good is God, add the ‘d’ and evil’s devil I hope you see what’s conceived is just a dose of peaceful venom Gotta keep you in line so you don’t feel the fire And what do you get when fire fights fire You get a bigger fire, it ain’t hard people! You don’t have to be smart just wake up the pineal The system ain’t broken they made it unequal They’re trying to separate us they’re using Jesus I’ll always fight back, even when it’s tough I don’t know much but I know God is Love They try to break that and turn it to hate We’re starting to wake up, they’ve made a mistake Sure this mixtape has been me venting But I needed to so I wouldn’t fucking end it All over something so fucking thick headed You gotta go through hell to experience heaven And that’s what keeps me going, sometimes it’s hard but You gotta look past it, and just aim farther Sure I’ve got problems, but everyone’s got em It can get too much and I feel like Robin But at least I found my way in which I could vent It’s out of my head and now off of my chest It’s hard to talk to you when you’re so damn quiet How do you expect me to know who I am When I don’t even know just who you are I’m a passenger in your world but you’re driving too fast You’re driving me insane and I’m hiding the pain Trying to gain some answers to avoid this state Of mind, I can’t find the answers Where’s the questions I dunno what I’m asking So much to know and understand in this life Wish I had more insight to ignite and this bright Bulb wouldn’t be hidden in the fucking shadows The path I walk is narrow but I think I got the ammo The curtains closing, this mixtape is over I won’t make a penny from it but I feel wealthy So much to say where’s the words to say it I’m hurting I’m praying, this burdens beens aching I dunno how to say it or how on Earth to face it I don't know where I'm going but I know I'm on my way