Breathing to Death

[Verse 1] It's like I'm tired of life Lord I'm wrong why I can't get right And when it's dark why I can't get light eh why it can't be light It's so heavy why my sin won't let me see the end come get me Please come get me my thoughts my mind my ways all evil I'm supposed to be your people I'm sposed to see your sequal I said I'll never leave you But I'm so left I ain't right Lord I'm sleeping with death I am cheating with death am I deaf Its like I don't hear you I say that I'm a Christian but it's like I don't fear you I'm on a selfish island and I am no where near you God I really need you even tho I don't appear to I'm drinking out a broken cistern That could never hold water and I'm gonna get burned Tho I try I never satisfy or quench this yearn I hear you calling but it's like a fight for me to just turn Lord I deserve to burn [Hook: Repeat 2x] Help me Lord before theres no time left I ain't living I'm just breathing to death (echo) Your ways are perfect and they lead me to rest Mine are evil and they lead me to death [Verse 2] I'm fellin' schizophrenic maybe I ain't saved Cause I gotta get high just to block out all the pain Seen death, seen hurt seen a whole lotta thangs Instead of running from it I'm running away from change It's like I'm outside in the ice cold weather The rains coming down and I keep getting wetter I know I'm getting sick and I could die any second But still I refuse to let your truths make me better I'd rather eat flies and maggots instead of bread And its killing me slow but I can't get it through my head You were stabbed you were murdered and for me is why you bled But I spit on your bloody face as If I never cared And Lord how dare I compare my pain Your father turned his back and you were left to hang I don't know why you did it that I can't explain How can you love this sinner whose desecrated your name Lord I deserve the flames [Hook: 2x] [Verse 3] I know I tell lies I know I do dirt Apart from you I'm nothing but you can give me worth I don't know if I know you But still I know I should I know the days are evil and only you are Good I've come to this conclusion I would like to change Cause all the worlds money and fame cannot sustain I know that I should turn but thats the hardest thang Cause do I really feel that havin' Jesus is my gain The world is so tempting Satan is a beast He hypnotizes my eyes to say the least But Jesus be my treasure to know you is live And I am here dying trying everything there is All I need here is you help me turn away from sin Lord give me grace to turn away and the fear not to give in I know that I'm not perfect but if I could rest in Him I know I don't deserve it but still I'll take your hand Lord let me take your hand