Facing That Void

[Lateef] Problems of addiction, for some can be different, different people But for Joline, lemme break it down like this See it started when she was an only kid 4 5 6 when she noticed it That look of surprise up in her momma's iris When she smiled wide-eyed as that fire hit And the way that it fed all the tiredness Right after it starved all the wiredness And the crazy shit that jumped off and issues that jumped up When Joline lighted it And the way she always was hiding it To herself and others, denying it Even after the doctors had told her to stop Cuz it was robbing her soul and she'd die from it But she cursed them all in their holiness Called 'em frauds, practicing phoniness So she'd lay in her bed, smoke filling her head Curled up with her little ball of loneliness Even tried to pick something new to get Something that's a little less self-destructivish When she felt the seed of that need her mind got greedy She gave in and nourished it Told herself that she loved all the flourishes And the people around her encouraged it So what the heck another one to the neck And got more depressed losing control of it [RV] Facing that void (x2) [Lateef] Joline's usage got rampant and out of control The fix hit was worth all the money and gold The anesthetic for her problems and a singular dose And without it she was doubting she would ever be whole The amount she used to take would just make her feel cold Wasn't enough now, what she needed was MORE It had been a long time since she'd gotten some clothes And the drain on her pocketbook was starting to show And her eyes in her sockets they were starting to bulge All the muscle tone gone, just skin and bones And she'd talk about the same old rigamarole At any given time break out shaking and jonesin' Strange stories about her begin to be told About what she would do if she wanted the dough Even her friends said she's at an all-time low Lost her job, her dog, then lost her home Last time that I seen her she was all alone So high that I thought she could probably have flown She recited some weird strange haunting poem Then laughed at a joke that was solely her own I had to walk away and leave that girlie alone Cuz I knew her type that same zombie clone Hope she finds what she's looking for And fills that void before her mind is gone [RV] Facing that void (x2)