False Reality

This is stressful This is so undelightful, every time I make my move, I'm blocked from it What does it mean? Is it for me? why do I feel constantly alone? Everyday, I walk to school and all I ever feel is stress All I ever want is my friends, to treat me the best, but I never get it Because they really don't care, I guess when you open yourself To the life of this world, everyone loves you, but as you As you go the God's door, they suddenly hate you Now I'm starting to get it, now I'm starting to see it That the dunya, is ugly, cruel, and all an illsion The only thing that remains, is the tiny drop of mercy That only one person, out of 100 people, gives to people As so as I pull to the Deen, I see the that the world, is all a delusion But as I start to pull from the deen, I start to see the beauty And the dunya as a form of reality, totally forgetting, that I can die, I will die I cannot hold to this world, it is putting nothing, but unhappiness in my heart It's putting nothing but lies, and illusions in my head, why shall cry for this false reality? When I can cry to meet Allah, in peace in the life of Jannah. Just today at school, I was with a sister Then I meet up with another sister, with my special friend As we were talking, I started to feel envy, and jealousy, which that is a feeling that no Muslim should have But I couldn't help it, they have so much in common more then I had, i shouldn't feel bad I wanted to try to make her friends, with me, but knowing that never happen, I didn't bother Cause I knew, I feel more left out, then ever Then I realized, that I had graspped the life of this world, when this is not my home, this is only a bridge For my real home, the Hereafter So I pray for my two sisters to be good friends, the bestest friends, for I I know I was destined to independent, but I don't anything wrong with that I believe that's how I was made to be, and I should appeaiate that, cause one day If I was to become famous, there might be good behind it Never mind about having friends, it's fine if I don't become friends that easy with people Sometimes it's just better to have God, cause humans aren't always going to love you They'll be in your life, then the next you're in darkness But when you have the Lord, always, you'll never, ever in darkness, you'll always be in light, and most opened to the door of Tawfeeq The door of success With the Lord, there is no one else that's the best