Haze

[Hook: Lady Essence] Im in a haze, searching for the clarity It's hard to play, so work has been therapy Its hard to say, so let me write it carefully Im grateful for today in case tomorrow isn't there for me But I swear, If you could finally bear with me You would find anxiety dying to take the air from me Its, suffocation and suffering' patients a stare at me Im, stuck with satan, he's just been waiting to marry me [Verse 1: Lady Essence] Commitment's like a buried ring, that I don't dare to find Others only want it, to flaunt it and say the wear the shine Eventually they wear the shine, that's when the sun fades Say my spouse left me, my house is empty on Sundays Yeah, he took the kids too, I wouldn't kid you Now you understand, why my heart is hard to give you Why life is hard to live through, cause I love you I'm workin' overtime no time for thinkin' of you- Gotta stay ambitious, get riches is what I must do If bitches wanna fuck you, I gotta let it go- Gotta walk it off, not cause us an episode Or call you on the telephone, cause I refuse too Most would call it love, but me, Im too unusual [Hook: Lady Essence] Im in a haze, searching for the clarity Its hard to play so work has been my therapy Its hard to say, so let me write it carefully Im grateful for today incase tomorrow isn't there for me But I swear if you could finally bear with me You would find anxiety dyin to take the air for Its, suffocation and sufferin' patients a stare at me Im stuck with satan he's just been waitin to marry me Im in a haze, searchin for the clarity Its hard to play so work has been my therapy Its hard to say, so let me write it carefully Im grateful for today incase tomorrow isn't there for me But I swear if you could finally bear with me You would find anxiety dying to take the air from me [Verse 2: Lady Essence] And Im the type to feel the pressure in excess I hope this year isn't better than the next I hope this fear of depression doesn't set My focus is clear but I can't measure my success I guess Im just unsure how to, the money I make Won't equal what I amount to Running in place tryna even out profound truths Trying not to dream while I'm sleeping in a sound booth Wish I could live life sound proof Sick of all the talking, all too often it could drown out The beauties of the life that I write when I drown out I keep the secret when Im found out For now I need an answer, could you tell me what success is? The person I become, or the clothes that I dress in? Stocks I'll invest in that could drop any second Maybe its who Im not that I've got interest in And is it failure Im afraid of? Or those I let down when Im tryna make my way up But those who I surround always seem to take my days up Then they ain't around when I need someone to wait up So could you tell me what success is? Looking through the haze, in a daze, feeling breathless