Queen of Apologies

I blame no one but myself So honestly, is this how it's gonna be? Tell me who's the enemy I want a hot little emo chick with gauged ears Tattoos on her wrists, dyed jet black hair I wanna do shit to her and it would probably be wrong If I even talked about it in a song, oh, fuck it I wanna tie her up, get a scarf and blindfold her up Light the candle and watch as the wax drips up and down her back, yeah It's no secret to me that she's my equal and she's my match When I untie her, she escapes It's like an animal how she attacks Show her brown eyes, bring that back Fuck that shit man I'm over that These are the chicks, man, they can't fuck Compared to you, ain't no lookin' back It's like a track and I've been racin' for the finish line Sometimes I've been racin' out my mind And then I found her and my heartbeat louder I surrendered all power, fell in love within the hour See, she hates rap like rock 'n' roll That's how I rock for sho' Suicide girl ride a shotgun baby Girl go 'head and lock 'n' load How'd you knock me off my feet? I'm the Queen of Apologies And I'm fighting this feeling But it never stops, never stops I'm still waiting And I'm stuck with this feeling Will it ever stop, ever stop? I keep trying Yo, hear I go again I'm tryna get over her I'm tryna stomach all the thoughts of seein' her with someone else Tryna pick up all the parts, tryna glue 'em back together Just to see if they resemble what we share together And that is all, now it seem she only call When she's tryna buy some Adderall No problems get resolved Now it seems all our memories dissolve like salt And I'm sittin' tryna recall these thoughts that I've lost But I'm gone, I'm faded, somebody please save me See, I thought I fell in love, I just tripped on the pavement And now I'm sittin' in the midst of piled dishes and beer bottles Attemptin' to mask the fact it seems I appear hollow, and yeah I got other problems, but she's the source of my sorrow She's El Diablo with the body of a model And tomorrow she'll appear at my door with a bottle of Chard' And an apology, I'll take her back, obviously How'd you knock me off my feet? I'm the Queen of Apologies And I'm fighting this feeling But it never stops, never stops I'm still waiting And I'm stuck with this feeling Will it ever stop, ever stop? I keep trying And I'm fighting this feeling But it never stops, never stops I'm still waiting And I'm fighting this feeling But it never stops, never stops I'm still waiting And I'm stuck with this feeling Will it ever stop, ever stop?