Anhedonia & A Tennessee Dawn

Some times you just gotta look back and wonder what you did wrong Why you did it. Wish you would've carpe diemed a bit more Or, if there was a sale on jeans, carpe denimed. Just playing. But not really [Verse One] You really don't know where you are 'til you past that point I am passing all my classes while my homies pass a joint They're telling me my sober status really disappoints Well, you can smoke that loud. But, I'mma be making noise Cause I'm drunk on life, I'm high on love I OD on symphonies, I just can't get enough The brand new me is a monster running off at the mouth Still that little boy's inside of me in that yellow house Yeah, he grew up and fought hard and played games in his backyard Had a first date and a guitar, made everything a stage. Now he hits hard I make music that provokes thoughts, music for making love or flicking off cops Music for stoners and those who don't smoke pot Ignorant ones don't like it. Yeah, I get that a lot Think the honky don't need a mic? Well, fine then They would see why I hold it if they only knew where I've been I'm tryna let you get to know A little more about me with the flow I'm genuine, this ain't a show But have a seat anyway. You can watch me go I'm a genius who's been through hell So I have a lot to say and I say it well I'm tired of relying on the wishing well I'm about to make a change so wish me well [Hook] Anhedonia and a Tennessee dawn Used to spend too much time dwelling on what was wrong Not focusing on how to move on Burn your bridges now pretty soon I might be gone Anhedonia and a Tennessee dawn Used to spend too much time dwelling on what was wrong Not focusing on how to move on Burn your bridges now pretty soon I will be gone [Verse Two] And they tell me not go in If only they could see the notebooks that I wrote in After some reading and little decoding They'd cry and be surprised that my heart's not frozen Yeah I wish I would've done some things and took some things back Didn't realize these times would be just a flash And where they really smiles if they were only masks? But what is a present spent dwelling on the past? For now I just joyride with my feet up on the dash Got a dozen fans or so and a wallet with some cash Have a life moving forward. I'm not looking back Even when I do, I don't cry, I just hang my head and laugh Smell the bonfire in the night air Point to a Vibe cover and say "I should be right there" But still they choose the ones that don't care or aren't good They tell me, "You should be famous." I'm like "Duh, hello. I should" I'd still love too deep. I'd still like stuff cheap But I still do in one day what most people don't do in weeks I'm a genius who's been through hell So I have a lot to say and I say it well I'm tired of relying on the wishing well I'm gonna make the change so wish me well And it was [Hook] Rest in peace the old me. Shouts out to anyone that loves me