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[Verse 1: King-ISO] Submerged in a pool of pity I feel me soaking This cash money got me managing with pills and potions I'm in the mirror with a pill bottle and I'm finna down em' My O.C.D said "how many", but who's really counting If the fate of a mustard seed could just inch a mountain How did I get this far and what am I tripping bout' then I'm sure by now if I'm supposed to live I'd have thought of Something Just in case somebody hears me, left the water running Off of nothing and group sessions and safety plans More acid re-flux and sharp pains like safety pins And unbeknown side effects for med's but take the chance I would've used a burner, homie's keep me away from them So now were here in this bathroom and if this actually kills me I can't help but think what my mama's reaction will be A lot of people daily never will Tarrel be steady And come to think about it I'm probably in hell already (In hell already) [Hook] I vividly remember the times homie Started to ask myself The more i read the more i see The more i know We got bored on earth homie (Uh, that's real shit) [Verse 2: King-ISO] What we do in this lifetime, echos for an eternity I created my own hell, that shit never occurred to me Impulses unlike minds manifested when the serpent speaks But evil minds are just like mine, maybe I did it purposefully And that's not to say that I'm evil I'm speaking generally about the people We all know who controls what and that's lethal how is that equal? Tell me, do you control what they feed you? Tell me, do you control what they teach you? Well, see if you condone how they lead you How you perceive the world that will be you Maybe these thoughts are yours and not mine Why we have thoughts to go and stop science And if I'm really lost I know that I'll find Nothing is impossible in our minds Meaning if I think it could just be existent Or whether I'm ceasing slipping, breathing, living I'mma still find the will to reach within If I'm dropping know that I'll climb All of the time, my body and soul, I'm out of control I gotta' grip hold, my solid composure and climb out of this hole I'm not in this globe I'm standing on my creation And be damned if i don't bite temptation So there's a chance to go off the matrix I'm in hell already (In hell already) [Outro] Real life Real life That's where I'm at homies, you know what time it is homies Just take a broad look at everything You'll see my vision