Jesus Lord

[Verse] Sittin' by myself I was thinkin' About all I've been through, I wish I was dreaming (Jesus) Man, it's hard to be an angel when you surrounded by demons I watched so many people leave I seen them change by the season, that's mama's seasonin' God got you, the devil's watchin', he just peekin' in I know I made a promise that I'd never let the reaper in But lately I've been losing all my deepest friends And lately I've been swimmin' on the deepest end It's just drugs, it ain't no hugs, it ain't no love therе You been down so much you don't even know what's upstairs Suicidal thoughts got you wonderin' what's up thеre And while I introduce you at the party, you say it's up there Too many pills, so much potions, so much pain, too many emotions And everything you do good, it just goes unnoticed And they tell you that you good, to just stay focused Mama, you was the life of the party I swear, you brought life to the party When you lost your life, it took the life out the party (Jesus) That woman rode with me like a Harley (Lord) Visions of my cousins in a cell really scarred me Movin' to the hood was like signin' up for the army 'Cause they been killin' niggas, since niggas was watchin' Barney (Jesus) You want dreams to come true? But I have nightmares 'Cause if that come to life, then I might not be right here Been in the dark so long go to the light here But I'm just reaching for the stars like Buzz Lightyear And now I'm lightyears ahead of those nightmares I deaded those night tales, when the night clears And if I talk to Christ, that I bring my mother back to life And if I die tonight, then I see her in the afterlife But back to reality, when everything's shattering And better have a strategy you could be a statistic Little boy dies, he's just one of the mystic And mama steady crying cause she really the victim And she's getting high and she's getting addicted And all her older boy was stuck with the picture, the pain is vivid That's a daily portrait, and her daughter just exhausted Sixteen, pregnant, baby Daddy say she should abort it but we can't afford it So she decides to move forward (Yeah) Baby shower time, father didn't show up As he was feeling nauseous, like she finna throw up The water flows down the lakes, yeah, it's finna go up (Jesus) A year done went by, her daughter just turned one (Lord) And she's still dependent on her mom Big brother in the streets, he went and bought him a gun He want revenge for the pain, feelin' numb (Jesus) And her mom still doing drugs 'cause that's the only time she feel loved (Lord) But is it real love? Do the scars really heal up? From all the pain that done built up [Chorus] Everybody knows somebody that needs Jesus, ah