Look Alive

(Verse 1) I take a look at my, future and all I see Is shattered thoughts of everything that I want to be I'm dead inside, but I just look alive Man I'm done with everything, I don't want me in my life Man I'm just being honest, I'm no longer the same Cuz I'm tired of people telling me that I am insane They're blaming me for their mistakes, but should I take the blame? Wish I could have a gun, & shoot myself in the brain! I'm falling apart, my heart is fukin frozen Frustrated & hated, feels like I'm drowning in an ocean I need a helping hand, to keep me up & floating But I don't care anymore, I no longer have emotions I'm dying & crying inside but I don't let it show I keep on looking alive so nobody else could know Just like a body, without a soul & I'mma be like that until the day I'm gone (Chorus) Stop the press, everything's a mess You can look alive, but you are not at rest And i-ideas are flowing through your head A million miles an hour while lying in your bed A lucid life you never thought you'd lead Working everyday Are you working just to bleed? I know (X5) (Verse 2) Is it my time to go? when will I rest in peace? When will I get the chance to say bye to my enemies? Cuz everything I see, is not what it used to be And everyone changes just the weather even me Feels like I'm going blind, my vision's getting shaded I'm jaded, so sick of being so manipulated My closest friends turned their back on me said I'm getting cocky So leave me if your fukin life is better off without me & I say it proudly, I don't need nobody I'll just keep on walking this path alone, no one's around me I'm better off alone, I don't need your sympathy I've been through all these ups & downs but you won't get the best of me I'm dying & crying inside but I don't let it show I keep on looking alive so nobody else could know My smile just hides the fuckin pain I'm feeling every single night So the next time you see me smiling just know that I'm dying inside (Chorus)