I.F.L.D (PROD. ORBT)

STRESS KNOWLEDGE "Lately i been looking for myself Im just trying to find some happiness wish i never lost my innocence in the middle of a sicker struggle Im dependent on a different feeling i can only find it with a milligram and ima need some more for my tolerance and thats way higher than my confidence Became intro-verdant i dont speak and i can't sleep i been so stressed. what if the plan do not pan out all the time that im putting in Wasted energy upon the dream and i can feel the fate as i begin to flow and i have been sedated for a couple months cause i am too depressed about a lot of shit Life ain't going like i thought it would. realizing im a lost cause, pray to god that i can find some peace i need the recipe you know the formula to get a normal life I stay isolated can't trust a soul i don't feel love its like the only ones that ever cared about me these different drugs so i choose to use them i mixed them up I need variety and im an outcast of this society with no 3 stacks and no Looshaus lair just loose morals and a ton of pain Platency that i can never change start the fire Ima let it burn feeling low i know i need help Headed to a safe place, can you relate to my predicament? Im in vicious cycle but it never ends i might get clean for like a few days But Its a constant struggle i need strength, i dont have faith, and im insecure a self conscious man that feels agony i can't feel the void in my fuckin heart But im terrified and im paranoid, i know i had the choice of positivity and my potential was a promiscuity but realistically I am a weaker person persecute the soul i execute the purpose of my self destruction i don't have a conscious in a constant battle But its mentally I need to find a better outlet lost in the dark space damn! LAWD Talking about the pain that i repress I'm in mutual relationships everyday, and I've been living straight by addiction but they can not understand the reason why i do it. i am feeling like everyone else is against me i carry a chip on my shoulder as long that's holding my head to the ground but im lower than ever It never gets better i bet they maintain Im the Perfect example of wasted potential Not to mention all of my opportunity's are passing, can not commit to sobriety prior to pardon my edecate, we make it darker to see what the message is affirmations alegated repetitive pacing myself on the why can't I and i do it, i come for oblivion im covering agony Masterpiece that was aspired by Misery living my life and i live for a muse, focusing something i like at the the moment Im vulnerable i am a loner insisting i see what it is, i get the sense that these people are fake, im disconnected I have No emotions I'm heartless I've started to realize there is no hope. I am inspired by nothing i notice the smoke in the mirror's the sight of the sober The flight that im on it was artificial, disappear into disparity , and everything that we are given is realistic its depicted inside of my mind the minute i think half of my thoughts im moving on salutations from a better bond I do not feel like the person i was or i used to be i know my purpose is gone, pray that i can become mentally strong im holding on but i know that im finished Empty inside man i need to replenish, i said that i'll quit but im back on that shit and i sit by myself feeling disappointing but its really pointed that im pointed out Conversations with nobody else, at my lowest i sincerely know it i'm a lotus flower in the concrete Dirty pedals and a crooked stem but when i needed friends Man i could never find em so i find my reality when i hallucinate, losing myself i can not get a grip of my self esteem man that no longer exist