The Session

[Intro] Oh, man, I'm a go in here, man I'm a give this fool my money, man I don't think this fool helping me, man Oh... I don't know what's going on in my head, dog I guess I'll just... do the best I can, man... have an open mind "Good morning K I hope we have a real productive session today Lay back and try to extract the pressure away What's on your mind is at your own discretion to say" Well Doc, I'm in the mood for confession today Since adolescence, I've been stressing and destined to spray Every time I mess up and need a blessing, I pray Then I commit the same sin and throw my blessing away "Are you spiritual?" Yeah, but I'm barely submitting "Do you believe in God's mercy?" I wouldn't pray if I didn't A voice speaks in my head but I refuse to hear it "That's your conscious, some call it the self accusing spirit" Hmm, so you're saying that's God? "No, you said that, and the fact that you did is odd Now I'm wondering how come it is you're wondering this In my opinion, I don't think you feel like God exists" What the fuck you talking about, man, you trying to be funny? I ain't paying you for this bullshit, man, give me my money "Calm down, don't get upset, I just want you to listen I'm only saying there are times in life when God is missing" God is with me, I ain't no atheist, save that for them "He's with you but the question is, are you with him? See according to the laws of physics, even in one's mind Two things can't occupy the same space at the same time" I don't think I understand can you repeat that again "In other words where there's God they can be no sin And where there's sin there can be no God, so don't confuse Try to combine them, you lose, it's your option to choose" Okay, so what I need is division, between God and sin "Just like you do with me and religion" What? "In other words you seek guidance from me You make me out to be everything your preacher should be" You're tripping fool, you ain't my master you ignorant bastard "Then why do you come to see me instead of your pastor?" I just... (sigh) Man, it ain't what you said Matter of fact all you're trying to do is mess with my head You're trying to make me think I'm crazy "No, I just want to help" In reality I feel like you kinda crazy yourself "I'm a trained psychotherapist, I don't have to take this" And when you bust that word down it says "Psycho, the rapist" "Vent your anger K, that's what you've been needing" If I really vented my anger your ass will be bleeding Don't ostracise or patronize me Your job is to wisely analyse and logically advise me "I see some progress, I'm somewhat astonished If I ask you a few questions will you answer them honest?" Go ahead, man "First off, what's the hardest you've cried?" It was 1982 when my grandmother died "How'd you feel?" I was bad but I was happy I met her If she was still alive today I feel my life would be better "Do you wish that you could see her?" I don't know "Do you ever-" Hey man, look I don't want to do this no more Let me ask you some questions, "Do you ever cry?" (Sometimes) Have you ever fucked your secretary? Well can I? "Don't be ridiculous" I'm being real, you see how it feel? One more stupid ass question I'm a pull out my steel Matter of fact I'm gonna pull it now "What are you doing?" "You're gonna get yourself in trouble," fuck it my life's already ruined Yeah, you're scared now, come on analyse my behaviour With this pistol in your face your degrees can't save you "You're making a big mistake K, put the gun down" Shut up, I'm in control hoe, lay on the ground You listen to me, I want you to say, 'Please don't kill me' "Do you want to kill me K-Rino?" Nah, not really I want to kill the way I feel and act, and murder my demons Until my thinking and God's will fall in agreement "I think we're finally breaking through but it's too early to speak" I appreciate it Doc, I guess I'll see you next week