My Laughs

[Verse 1: K-Rino] My head snapped in the worst trap, I see my foes taking dirt naps For years I've been running full speed but I'm just finishing the first lap Is life really about coming up? Or is the purpose really about love? Trouble real easy to get into but it's hell getting out of My childhoods all gone now, it's tough standing on my own now I miss staying in my momma's house gotta keep remembering I'm grown now Got struggles that I got to overcome and mountains that I got to go beyond I'm staggering, disoriented, feeling all spaced out and I'm the sober one But I made it through a lot of long years it's like the moneys where the wrong is It's bad when that devil's on your shoulder, but some days I be on his I'm steady walking down the wrong route, I don't smoke but I'm zoned out The streets ain't got nothing on the war that I'm fighting in my own house From sun up to when the sun's down, my hearts weighing bout a ton now I exploded like a bomb sound, everybody telling me to calm down But I won't stop until I get enough, my stress cup keeps feeling up I'm acting like I'm happy, but I'm about to go insane cause the pain's building up [Hook] If you only knew the days I've had The tears that live inside my laughs Come grab my shoes and walk my path The tears that live inside my laughs [Verse 2] Am I frustrated? Extremely. Dirty analysts they wanna screen me I've got a storm brewing in my mind but you'd never know it you've seen me See I've never been a cutthroat dude and I've never been too fly to listen They say that nice guys finish last well I'm guessing that explains my position Cos other than this deep harassment, I be shoveling through hate and madness And theirs trouble in my mental cabinets, smiles covering my inner sadness Tryna empty out my whole song vault, been hit up with a lot of thrown salt My daddy told me 99 percent of things that happen to you are your own fault I'm hated because I'm not manipulated I waited til my mind was liberated I made it possible for other cats to make it but the love was not reciprocated And it's loading up because I never vented, I'm getting more aggressive by the minute And I don't care how good and generous you represented, everybody got a limit I lost touch with myself it's gone, I'm disconnected like a telephone I'm tolerating what your saying but I'm thinking please leave me the hell alone Some peace I was looking forward to and patience is what I'm showing you Man, I don't wanna take it out on you but I'm about to click from what I'm going through [Hook] If you only knew the days I've had The tears that live inside my laughs Come grab my shoes and walk my path The tears that live inside my laughs [Verse 3] All my with and I prayed my inner strength I displayed When my confidence was hit by a relentless brigade Yeah I spent what was paid every cent that was made Flashbacks post dramatic memories bad events were replayed I was lynched and betrayed, though I'm meant to be saved But through it all for my God I will represent unafraid I never bent and never laid, hate they sent was like a blade My existence in the game others tried to prevent but I stayed There's no pacifying, the whole world is dying But whose gonna be the one in you, gonna wake up that lion And break up that dying, fist up those eying Miss who keep trying to posses them their defiance Meanwhile I'm just trying to fight with the powers of my own vices Everybody walking 'round lifeless they ain't knowing every second's priceless A civilization in a crisis, wish that I could turn on a light switch Tryna get my name on the right list scared to bust at 'em cause I might miss [Hook] If you only knew the days I've had The tears that live inside my laughs Come grab my shoes and walk my path The tears that live inside my laughs