Andy Dufresne (Ambition)

I have memories that hurt my stomach when I think about em Thoughts that make me more afraid than horrors that I've seen My reality is worse than your nightmares Right...like you even give a slight care I become alive in the night, (yeah) With shit that haunts my mind And makes my gut twist; I tuck lips Cause music moves my soul and lyrics touch my heart And sew me together when my emotions tear me apart It takes me places, that I've never been and I'm bound to go And people who impose are only hindering their own Believe in me when I'm nothing and you'll be there when I'm something In a field of dreams, where when it rains, it pours and I'm sunken I hate the hate, but without the hate, then I'm nothing The same ones that pull your card are the same ones bluffin And old girls that wouldn't date you now are blushin It's ABSolute time for me to crunch in And far as time go, make sure you own yours or relucant- Ly have not enough to be successful or too much of it We Love havin sex, but Hate Loving And problems are the answers depending What you take from it See I find it a compliment when those with accomplishments Start poppin shit, about your confidence And when you drop hit...shit, they don't acknowledge it Cause prides a thick ball of snottiness to be swallowin Yet someone whose buzzin moderate, they'll let rock a set And that's bc they're comfortable given chances to those who are not a threat But me I walk twice as hard...to earn respect Literally in steps and in heart that I invest I'm not claiming to be the best, I just got a story to tell With half an image that sells and the other half that propels Me to new heights...that's why when I write, I reach a new nice And gain fame off of my life where I pay a price Cause I've hard days...where work sucks and I wanna snap That's called real life...cause in reality I wanna rap But I'm a working man, facts Earning meals without snacks Tryin to reach my goals defending my post without kickin back So it's hard not react When every kid that I pass Taps his mom and he asks Why does walk like that? Lookin back.... Do you know what that makes me feel inside? To be alive on stage, yet wanna be concealed and hide???? It's like being speared alive and being looked in the eyes While your're dying with disgrace as if you kneeled and died Why... Is mediocrity being oversold And nobody cares about the quiet man holding gold? Stayin humble and taking small steps proves my point That in time, you'll never be overhyped and disappoint Like most...and be considered another lame If the rules don't apply to you, then reinvent the game At times, I have quiet reminders that I'm sane And no matter what they say, there's no reason for me to change Cause I've already changed others thru myself So if I change what changes others, how does changing that help? I feel the wave of stayin current and creating stability But the wind blows whatever direction regardless if they feelin me Cause no matter what, in due time, most of them are killing me The spotlight light loses Watts before it does the MC... The spolight loses what? before it does the mc... Cause the spotlight loses watts before it does the Mc....