Twelve

You might find it hard to remember when you look at me now But once long time ago I swear I was twelve I didn't have respect for people, not for anyone I used to have fun all alone, have fun all by myself But you had a gentle face with lips so full, quick like a preacher So you would hang out at the gym all day to look like wrestlers Still you kept this look so understanding like a preschool teacher You statue of a man with all those muscles and the chest hair Hey hey, won't you stay In one of my castles We could have it all And then in school I used to always fall in love with singers Like little fool I was they never taught me how to sing Boys with pianos didn't want to hurt their pretty fingers And I swore to stay twelve till I see you again my king With every sin the net of skin becomes a little weaker My next of kin is having kids, they start to grow first And everyday I eat and then become a little sicker Cancer that kills so slow you forget it exists Hey hey, won't you stay In one of my castles We could have it all Sometimes I think it's better to just go before my time So I could at least feel like I'm having life in my own hands But moods take turns in torturing me with their arrival And my own head plays tricks on me forgetting what I meant I am forgetting who I was when I was with you darling I am forgetting and my face turns into pile of blue You can't go before you know what love is, you said to be charming Not before you know love, oh God I was angry with you