Ashamed

[Intro] The journey... The struggle... [Hook] I'm so ashamed of how it got this way I don't know what to do I just don't feel like I'm, still any good for you [Verse 1] God, I told myself these are the words I'd never say I'm my own worst' opponent, and it hurts in every way You ever thought about smashing the mirrors in your house So you don't have to see the same person that hurts you every day? I have I'm shattered, can I pick up the pieces before I pick up a piece And squeeze, and give up on breathing, go live up with Jesus Give up, I'm leavin', sick of the freezing rain Switch up the season, the reason, because I need some sunshine This umbrella I'm under, while it's raining alcohol See we're abusing each other I'm just trying to drown my problems in a bottle of Jack Daniels Let me talk to y'all about a couple of problems I can't handle See my whole family's starvin', I need dollars to feed 'em A dropout, nobody college degreed him I went the block route, where cops play God with your freedom What's the odds? Imma beat 'em All of my friends, man they're gone when I need 'em The same song plays over and over My life's bullshit, it's getting older and older I pour more Jack over the soda, told y'all I hate being sober Probably need to meditate with Deepak Chopra and Oprah I hope for hope, some meaning for tomorrow And I wish I didn't drink, but ain't no Geenie in this bottle I know, I gotta change and realize I'm highly worth it But until then, my favorite excuse is "nobody's perfect" [Hook] I'm so ashamed of how it got this way I don't know what to do I just don't feel like I'm, still any god for you [Bridge] All the pressure and pain Tryin' to maintain All the pressure and pain Drowning my sorrows in bottles Shame All the pressure and pain Tryin' to maintain All the pressure and pain Looking in the mirror, my reflection is a damn shame It's a shame, nobody else to blame [Hook] [Bridge]