Hindsight

[Verse 1] I screamed to God out of frustration After another day of waking, and hating the fact That I'm still where I'm at What's the point of all of this? Cause I'm not seeming to find it Is it meaningless? I search to reason behind it Because these moments seem to drag on forever And these years on end seem to have never been This desperation has formed repetition within Too insecure to pretend, and I'm too weak to defend (Here it comes again, all in my world again) And now I'm left with no direction No beginning, no end The days blend together and the weather never changes Numb to the outcome but yet not quite painless Aimless to whether or not I made a mistake And if so, how far is too far before it's too late? Should I wait but then what would be too long? To reverse the effects if I was wrong? [Hook] Hindsight is a beautiful thing When you can look back and see What patience and time can bring [Verse 2] Is it a must that I'm here, is it a must that I stay? In order to look forward, must I look away? We're moving towards a new day Unsure of what tomorrow will bring our way I'm not even quite sure of what this day holds I say we travel the unknown and watch it unfold Hold today close while still reaching for tomorrow Through the test of time, I've seen joy overcome sorrow So with every trial I endure With hopes to mature into what I was created for More than life itself I want life itself Press past the present until forever is felt (And take hold of the hidden mystery Wide eyed and open, I now see differently) If it's to be then give me the strength to be content And find peace in knowing one day it will all make sense [Hook] [Verse 3] Learning to accept the unexpected Because the unknown wasn't here for me to correct it So I let it go and stopped trying to control the impossible Simply put, tossed in the shuffle At a young age, just like everyone else So I don't feel sorry for you or for myself Love is bigger than that, and I'm not below or above The way it moves, even though the things it does To my train of thought can bring about doubt and uncertainty Patience tends to not agree with my psyche That's more than likely just some pride in me Fighting expectations of where I think my life should be Selfishly, I forget so quickly Let me never forget, Lord, break me in humility Some sort of amazing grace on me As I look back upon my life, and where You've taken me [Hook] [Outro] Hear the call, peace fall From trial to triumph, I want Your hand in it all Allow me to know where to stand in it all Life Giver