Bad Santa

[Produced by !llmind] [Verse 1: Joell Ortiz] Sometimes I wonder if he knows I love him I don't feel that daddy squeeze when I hug him He says "I love you" when he hangin' up the phone but it's muffled Like he's uncomfortable sayin' it, so his voice has trouble Gettin' the words out, his mother gave up bein' my baby She packed her bags and hit Atlanta when he was a baby Man them first couple of years it was crazy I'm back and forth to child support then she agreed he could stay with me On Christmas vacations, I would lift him up, raise him So high in the air, my eyes tearin', this kid is amazin' This year is the fourth generation PlayStation I know he's awaitin' It's under that tree waitin' It's that look on his face when he's happy that makes me proud to be daddy When he runs over and grabs me, filled with true joy In the same moment I'm bothered, I mean he knows I'm his father But am I just that once-a-year homie with new toys? [Hook: Joell Ortiz] Sometimes I wonder if rap is a gift Every 25th he's unwrappin' his gifts Pardon me if I curse when I'm rappin' and shit But sometimes a fuckin' curse comes wrapped as a gift A curse comes wrapped as a gift Sometimes a fuckin' curse comes wrapped as a gift Every 25th he's unwrappin' his gifts Am I a bad Santa? [Verse 2: Jared Evan] Will you show up in the middle of night? Will you be the one to turn off the lights? I hope so When I see you, everything is alright But will you really be here tonight? I don't know It's like all this time, I've been wanderin', waiting for you You stay on my mind, cause I belong to you Santa... [Hook: Joell Ortiz] Sometimes I wonder if rap is a gift Every 25th he's unwrappin' his gifts Pardon me if I curse when I'm rappin' and shit But sometimes a fuckin' curse comes wrapped as a gift A curse comes wrapped as a gift Sometimes a fuckin' curse comes wrapped as a gift Every 25th he's unwrappin' his gifts Am I a bad Santa? [Bridge: Joell Ortiz] It's you I'll always be there for I'm just wishin' I could be there more This music's keepin' me on tour But I'll be right back to see my boy [Hook: Joell Ortiz] Sometimes I wonder if rap is a gift Every 25th he's unwrappin' his gifts Pardon me if I curse when I'm rappin' and shit But sometimes a fuckin' curse comes wrapped as a gift A curse comes wrapped as a gift Sometimes a fuckin' curse comes wrapped as a gift Every 25th he's unwrappin' his gifts Am I a bad Santa?