Now I Lay

[Verse 1] "Pump it up, you came to get it crunk A dame and shit and drunk, you came to get it on" That's when it all got started, I mean Back then I wasn't so cold-hearted With every stanza came an extravaganza For every question he got one less answer I was tryin' to be more than cool Nah, it was before that, maybe boarding school That was back when I would want to endanger myself Maybe it was just to entertain myself I don't need help, I could change myself Fuck ya'll, I ain't gotta explain myself Death's around the corner, I could hear his footsteps Does he think that I'm the only nigga in the hood left So tell any listener of mine, for twenty-eight years been a prisoner of the mind [Refrain x2] Now I lay me down to sleep, and I I pray the Lord my soul to keep, if I If I should die before I wake, then I I pray the Lord my soul to take, I mean [Verse 2] Welcome everybody into the brain of a self-proclaimed sinner Even when he can't win, that nigga won't surrender Boones Farm put the wheels in motion I felt every emotion except devotion Message in a bottle in the bottom of the ocean But I can't swim, dammit I can't win So I don't care how you rate me It'd take a long time to evaluate me So if, this be the last time you hear me Just know I got a loved one near me Please don't cry, let an eye get teary A nigga good, finally I'm somewhere care free Past is frightening but the future's scary And I'm, gettin' to the point that I fear me In a class all alone, don't compare me But I'll, blame God this is where he steered me [Refrain] [Verse 3] They tell me that eyes is the window to a man's soul So what you happen to see a nigga can't control And I turned a def ear To anything an anybody that'll get my head clear Why shake the dice if you never gon roll em I told em, that the straitjacket can't hold em I ain't psycho, don't belittle me now It's just a title cause they couldn't figure me out If you give a damn when shit hits the fan Please know anything I ever did a nigga planned Tryin' to better, high as ever Since I learned how to lie to a lie detector, still I'm damaged They say if you stay in that boat long enough you'll see where the land is So I'm right where I need to be Please believe it believe it please, let's get on our knees [Refrain]