Therapy

[Verse 1] Before I push myself off of this cliff He takes it off of his hip She in the back start sparking a spliff I just wanna say something at the tip of my tongue But its difficult. No matter the strokes, it won't come Make jokes & have fun But its hard to joke when stressin' and depression comes and you find your own brain in a slum Too much pressure. I'm only 18 With life decisions to make, and people bashing my dreams It really ain't what it seems My life ain't all that And reality calling, but I just cannot call back And I feel like I'm alone This a one way lane Sorry ma for spazzing out, man I'm just going insane Do y'all hear what I'm saying? I'm in an adolescent body Another teen dies, I visualize my autopsy Probably, gonna get less, of a rest If I wanna be able to say "success". God Bless [Verse 2] Feelings like this, it comes and it goes Chillin' with the bros all reciting Subtle Flows But ain't nobody knows, I'm feeling so alone Not physically but mentally what's weighing on my dome When I write this song, I'm searching for spiritual healing I was never the too good with expressing my feelings "Actions speaks louder than words" that's all I'm hearin' But words is all I got, this is why I write these lyrics Sometimes I fight these lyrics, find my identity But ppl won't let me be, I'll get out this eventually I caught myself doing things that I wouldn't do ever Sometimes you gotta break down just to pull it together Can't say the thought of suicide never grazed my head But I can't live out my own destiny, being dead With that said, just let me live free here Cause sometimes, I wake up and I don't wanna be here........ I'm afraid of what the future holds The future holds a chrome straight aimed to my dome I feel like all my friends going out far Study in colleges universities abroad I feel like they off to do bigger and better things & I remain in the city and I'm just gon' stay the same And man, I'm going through stress just like no other Tryna live up to the potentiality of my brother He's out doing neuroscience, that's not me though Cause I can't make it like Dwight at the freethrow Line, but its fine, all I needs a little time Cause even on the new moon, the other side shines Sometimes I swear my mind's much older & people don't understand so I get a cold shoulder Don't even know who I am anymore RIP to the person that I used to know