Better Off Dead

[Verse 1] Do what the fuck I want, fuck a consequence Man, I promise I’m so self-conscious I’m so self-conscious, yeah I really be Had no idea what I was doing in university Tryna not to fail a major so I could make some money Was too scared to say shit or everybody would look at me funny The concept of diplomas seemed so secure Dropped out and since the everybody looking at me weird When it All Falls Down, who you gonna call now Dribbling lyrics cos I won’t let my eyes bawl now Eviscerating beats until my guts fall out Problems ain’t big enough, God don’t listen when I call out But I’m still hoping that I see He Doing work with the wordplay, fuck a CV And I just have to vent my feelings now All because the fucking Mayans let me down [Hook] Drowning not waving, the beat keeps me buoyant Ya’ll can swallow my kids, I’m my Father’s favourite disappointment Thank God that I’m alive and for my daily bread But if heaven’s a better place, then I’m Better Off Dead [Verse 2] I’ve gone insane, death is the next step I’m a sidewalk artist painting art for blind pedestrians What’s the meaning of life, what’s my purpose I wasn’t an accident, I can’t be that worthless So I’m sitting quiet in ‘em churches Might doze off, thank God for the choir in ‘em churches The preacher be preaching, but I don’t always feel him ‘Cause he might be a false prophet and I want my profits to the ceiling Is the money the root of all evil, or the love of it Fuck rich, bitch, I wanna be comfortable I just want enough for me and mine So shallow so if she’s mine she’s gotta be fine And it’s fine, as long as we can spend time And if she don’t really love me, she can keep lying I’ll try to keep something extra for a rainy day When it rains it pours, my death is rain delayed [Hook] [Verse 3] Good morning, it’s all good right Let’s see how many more times I’ll be able to say good night In the meantime, can somebody get my tomb right I wanna be put in it under the full moonlight Don’t wanna dance with devil, I won’t dance at all He’s just waiting to take over once I’m gone Beat handling, mind scrambling, rhyme rambling Demons intercepting prayers, God’s not answering Or maybe I’m not getting the answers that I want But fuck it, I’ll be patient for another couple months Or it might take some years, who knows I might try to blow my brains out or to blow Just to pass the time but between you and I I’m way too indecisive for suicide But what I’m sure about is that this is what I was born to do I heard that we can all get heaven, I hope that rumour’s true [Hook]