Live 4 U

[Verse 1] It's kinda hard to explain But I been thinking, haven't come to a decision Drinking away the pain night after night, listen It's like I'm caught in the rain, that never stops and only follows me Wide, hollow feeling of emptiness, nothing inside of me Drama lays my head on the pillow, but still no sleep Been walking the Wonderland for 40 days and 7 weeks Just wondering how good it would be, to finally say goodbye To everything that's going wrong, God, especially me I wanna let go, let my mind just finally be free Breathe with no echo, tomorrow won't be less without me I stay in wet, though. Only thing that keeps me on the side of the living is you Said the same thing to me, too Otherwise, I'm just caught up in deception and lies I have days of just waking and hating the sunshine Hating life itself, hating death for taking its time Loving you enough not to commit the ultimate crime I sin in my mind though, visions of weaponry wettin’ me up Paying people off for setting me up Some crazy, wild, sick imagery, painting pictures of bloody scenes Seems the only peace of mind is in dreams So I pray for never-ending sleep, but it never comes So I pray for being so weak and giving up Friends say I live the party life, living it up One hand on the glass, other on the bottle, filling it up I wanna leave so bad, but loving you is enough To make a slow exit to Hell, would never leave you here by yourself Nobody else could keep me here but you Nobody else could wipe away the tears but you I love you too much [Hook] I would, give my, life for you If you asked me to I would do just anything for you And the world if I could I would give to you But I don't have anything to give So I swear just to live for you Live for you [Verse 2] Are you disappointed in me? Twenty-three, can't get it together No money, no job, debt that seems to last forever I just wanna make you proud someday Like accepting awards that's in front of a crowd and say "Thanks" in front of a million people Tell you I've falling victim to some evil things in the past My road's been short but rough—a lot of things you don't know even if you ask I wanna tell you all but I can't—you're too precious for that Try and explain why your daughter is into rap I'm like guilt with a guilty conscience Emotional politics wild on me Constantly pregnant with a rowdy problem child in me I wonder if we switched places, changed the dial on me Would you rather be somebody else's mommy? Divorced probably Disown me, no apology needed—I understand the reason It's the quality of living and what you want for children I'm not giving it, but you're the kind of love that never gives up [Hook] I would, give my, life for you If you asked me to I would do just anything for you And the world if I could I would give to you But I don't have anything to give So I swear just to live for you Live for you [Verse 3] I promised I'm gonna buy you that house on the beach A whole damn street And give you grandchildren, two maybe three Build you a studio and get you back to recording And singing whenever you want, give you whatever you want I know you miss the music too, you just put up a front But I can see it in your eyes, musical echo soul cries to be free Don't you worry about me I'm gonna be all right, when I'm in darkness, you’re my light I just think different—like you taught me The way you do, shine different—they all can see I just wanna tell you you're loved And anything that I can ever do for you is never enough It's never enough, it's never enough [Hook] I would, give my, life for you If you asked me to I would do just anything for you And the world if I could I would give to you But I don't have anything to give So I swear just to live for you Live for you